The hate of physical, tangible motion.
Progression at its worst.

Words with substance like
love
nature
God

are valued most high.
Perfection in it's latest stages.

Wrong desire, Lust. 
Fuel  for the raging fire
that burns deep in the Devils heart.

Patience, Control
Virtues of the omniscient, omnipotent One.

it's so easy to merely exist unseen ( Read more... )

Black and white ( Read more... )

There used to be a child's swing in our backyard, but now all that's left are two stray yellow ropes, moving at the touch of a breeze.
There used to be green grass in our backyard, until a machine tore it up unforgivingly and left nothing but black dirt to hint at death.

I realize that when confronted with major situations, I handle them accordingly ( Read more... )

I guess part of me wants to tell my secrets to some people because I don't want them to get the wrong impression of me. I don't want people thinking I am perfect, or that I am this quiet girl that goes to church and just loves God and wouldn't do anything wrong in the world. But that's not true. I wish it was...

I guess I was thinking about all of ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't been here since April. Geesh, that's a long time ago. I guess I finally broke free of my daily habit of journaling. Maybe I shouldn't have stopped, I know it's good to keep track of your thoughts, but I guess I didn't want to have live with the memories of the past, or to remember stupid things that I felt in the past. I don't know ( Read more... )

It's late. My mind is a swirling vortex of energy? It needs to be released before I break down. Or something utterly stupid like that. When it's late, my thoughts get carried away into depressing nothingness; well nothing that matters to the real world. If only my feelings were gone, then...then what?

Lord, what can I do now to overcome this?

Let go.

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I normally don't have many problems. Wait, yes I do. I just solve them quickly. Well, maybe not quickly, I just get over them; compromise with myself that it's okay. So nothing's really wrong with me or upsetting me right now. I had an awesome day, it's 1 in the morning. I'm exhausted. It's just that....there are things. Unexplainable things. To ( Read more... )

So I have given up carbonated drinks, energy drinks, alcohol, hawaiian punch, kool aid, and any other forms of things like those. (even sips ( Read more... )

I watched Flight Plan, and got so excited at the end I had to stand up and hide around the corner, behind the chair to watch the rest of it.

I went outside when it was dark and this nagging fear of paranoia that I was being watched kept a clutching grasp on my mind as I was trying to watch the clouds drift past the fading moonlight and as I stared ( Read more... )