Wow, so January has been a busy month. I'm glad to see it go in a way. Yet, it also saddens me that a year has past since last January and things have changed ever so much.

I wonder if any of this would be happening if I had ended it all back then.

or if any of this would be happenening if I hadn't ended that back then.

I actually cried today...yeah I know, surprising. Two and one half months later...

but it was at church and no one knew because it was dark...at least no one said anything about it or it wasnt written on their face that they were aware of my tears.

I'm okay now. I have God and I really do realize that He's all I need.

But I think I want to cry ( Read more... )

The biggest problem for me that I see out of the issue is being replaced, and that's too selfish of me to even say, but that's how I feel; like I'm going to get replaced. I know I will.

I wrote part of a story in english class, not as an assignment, called Melancholy. It was about this girl alone in a park and it was so beautiful that now I want ( Read more... )

I really need to be okay with this.

I've had this song stuck in my head for a bit now, but I'm positive it means nothing to you just like everything else that has to do with me:

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you i’ve waited all these years

For you i’d wait til kingdom come
Until ( Read more... )

WHY IN THE WORLD CAN I NOT STOP SHAKING?

pure madness. and krysta just needs to stop thinking [period]

Why does it seem so unreal?
I feel like I am living in a dream.

I have nothing else to say.
except, what happened?

All the words, all the words, all the words.
They throw me off.
What to do?
How to respond?
I just don't know quite yet.

I didn't mean to tell you a half-lie. I just couldn't gather my thoughts quick enough. What I said was true, but since I didn't tell you the other half I feel I have lied. I am sorry.

So my small thread of hope broke yesterday, and it's a little difficult. I am getting through it nontheless.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I have like these surges of energy where I need to do something before I burst. What I want to do is run, but I never get the chance. I don't have enough room in my room to dance, and I am not about ( Read more... )

I like to pretend I'm Elphaba...so I don't have to be in this world anymore.