"Look i dont know how to say this to you. But i dont want you to call me or text me. i dont want to see you ok ( Read more... )

It's been so long since i logged into livejournal that i absentmindedly used my old user account this morning, and came across all the insane posts i made my freshman year of college, that i eventually furiously turned all-private when i learned people were using what i wrote against me. I couldn't help but read the ones on the first page, which, ( Read more... )

i helped my old roommate (the good one) go shopping for eyeglasses at a vintage eyeglass shop and, in addition to digging up the only pair that worked for her, found three pretty fabulous pairs for myself. i narrowed it down to the two that i could not possibly live without - at $95 a pop - but reasoned that i need to find out if i even need ( Read more... )

After buying three dresses for my birthday week, i vowed not to go shopping until i came home to California. Clearly, in my mind, this meant specifically clothes shopping, as i still dropped $100 on a new watch (even though i bought one a few months ago) and more on books. And then today i bought a sweater because it was cheap, it has a hood, and ( Read more... )

Last night i had this dream where the ex i'm still in love with was fucking my roommate - not my current roommate, but in the dreamworld i was living with this girl i knew from high school who was just the eiptome of sex at the time. It was so upsetting that it woke me out of my sleep.

Who knew someone could also hurt you in your dreams?

It's no surprise that i've been really depressed these past few weeks. i still am, but having the day off kind of worked like chicken soup. i thought today would be much harder than it turned out. i hope spending New Year's Eve and Day likewise alone wont be too terrible either.

Happy Hannukah to me! i just bought myself a pit ticket to see the Foo Fighters at Madison Square Garden! i'm sure it'll be as fun as when i did this 4 years ago at CityWalk ( Read more... )

i've done something so terrible i can't bring myself to admit it to anyone close, or even relatively anonymously (since i can't face you) via livejournal. i think i am now a bona fide bad person. i am thoroughly disgusted with how i've been behaving, and what's worse, is now i am overcome with fear that something bad will happen to me in return, ( Read more... )

i'm exhausted ( Read more... )

So i got the NYU job. It's been alright. SUPER repetitive. And i think i make the guys nervous; they don't really know how to act around me or give me directions. One said i was better looking than the last guy, twice. i'll have to gauge if it's worth it when i get my first paycheck, but either way, because of tuition remission, i guess i'm in ( Read more... )