I'm baaaaaaaaaack!!!

I move this week. I'm excited, and scared. This is all very huge for me. Who would have thought at 38 years old, I'd be here? I can do this, I never thought I could, but now, now I know I can! Lookout world....here I come!

Monday morning there he was, 7:30 in the morning, he brought me coffee at work. I know, its small, but no one has ever done anything even remotely close to that for me before without being asked to. Another score. Then that afternoon, I got a phonecall from someone else, asking me out to lunch. Someone I never thought was even remotely interested, ( Read more... )

I met a guy... cute.. sweet... a guy.

Why the hell can I not get him out of my freakin head?
I mean cripes, I dont hardly even know him but everytime I turn around, there I am thinking about him. Its too soon for that, way too soon!

Stop being so negative, I'm not going to let you bring me down all the time anymore.

I CAN do this... so HAH!

Well, looks like the house is sold. Just waiting on the guys financing to be approved. I thought I'd be overjoyed to finally be moving onto something else and out of this big box of memories, but I'm not. I cry alot again. I'm sad, and scared, and feeling a little bit overwhelmed. He spends more time with his new family than he does his own kids. ( Read more... )

I love you, my buddy!!

Happy Easter!
I miss you, I wish I had more time.

Thank you so much for making my last birthday so memorable by sleeping with that lovely lady. Thank you for making me suffer for a full month before you decided you wanted to leave. Thank you even more for moving directly in with said "lovely lady". Thank you for deciding that the house needs to go up for sale, and that your going to constantly ( Read more... )

He brought a realtor over today.. I wanted to punch her and throw her out of my house. Not because she's horrible. I kinda like her. But because this is all so freakin fast! I've worked the past 15 years building this into a home, and now just like that, its all taken away. F**k him, f**k him and his whore for this.

I hate them both so much right

God, I broke yesterday. He was here when I got home and I stupidly went to the garage. I just broke. I cried and cried. I really do miss him. Yeah, he's a jerk and what he is doing is unforgivable. I just cant help it. He was the love of my life for 24 years. I just cant make it go away, as much as I want to. I even lost a friend today, or what I ( Read more... )