well, single again, im not quite sure if its good or bad yet. the whole decision was completely mutual though, so for the moment, im sad and happy at the same time...idk yet, who knows what the future fortells

im back...back from the hell that is texas...there isnt much there...i missed emmi so greatly...i really hated being away fro her that long...and i had nothing to do all week...but now im back...

...heres to you robbie...ill update my journal for you, but definately not about you...i have to say...all my other posts have been kinda...fucked up...now though...im finally happy, emmi does that for me, no one else could ever make me happy before her. i dont know what it is about her...but, she makes all other feelings that i have go away...i ( Read more... )

allow me to explain to anyone reading my journal how my life goes....i have never experienced anything i ever truly wished to experience...anytime that i become happy, something happens to strip away that moment of joy.sometimes i wonder what in the hell i did in my former life to deserve such a cruel cruel fate of receiving something i truly love ( Read more... )

...i dont know why i even fucking try sometimes...i hate myself and i hate the fact the all the ignorant indignant fools of people dont comprehend enough to leave me the fuck alone and not call me names.i dont wear a trench coat to look like neo i wear it to be me. i dont dress "goth" to stand out i do it because i am in pain and angst. i dont look ( Read more... )

...im really sick of being alone...i think its starting to get to me...idk, im just sick of everyone and thier fucking gimmicks...ESPECIALLY STACIA AND LEANDRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IM FUCKING SICK OF THEM!!!*sighs*fuck it...

...i am updating because robbie said to...so...here goes. i have not updated since youning live journal because i have a profile on darkstarlings as well as one on vampirefreaks, so it takes me along time to get around to all of them.i am only doing this because robbie(mind_trap8)is making me...