Like, Justin's there for him, and he's pretty, and it's nice to make him happy, but . . . there's no wondering 'Who is this kid, and why does he do what he does?' Which seems odd, to me, for a relationship.
I think Dan, having endured far less trauma in his life, is less complex than Justin. I'm not sure complex is really the word, but he is who you think he is and because of that, he assumes Justin, for the most part, is who he says he is. That Justin has been blindsided by tragedy is not lost on Dan, of course, but he does not assume that there is a "real" Justin underneath the young man he's come to know.
I don't think that's Dan's fault--it's no one's fault, really, because Justin is not intentionally misleading him--it's simply the reality!
That was so fuckin' good! Oh, Brian, you are always in my heart.
"Well, I care," Dan said firmly. "God, I'm sick of being such a..." He paused, searching for the right word.
"Prude?" Justin suggested. Dan swatted him on the rear, though the covers absorbed most of the blow. Justin laughed. "Such a what then? Ninny? Girl? Ninny prudey girl? What?"
"Whatever," Dan said, deciding he preferred not actually labeling what he was exactly. "I was thinking...let's go to Babylon. I want to... mix things up a little."
So hilarious. Wow, Dan is a real mixer-upper, what with the dancing at such a hedonistic homosexual establishment. I can just imagine what would happen if he accidentally walked into the backroom. I'd expect the same appalled reaction you'd get from a straight guy. Or maybe I'm just being too hard on dear old Dan. ;)
Christ, all hail the conquering hero. He operates on some 12-ton whale, but he can't kiss his lover in a coffee shop.The only fuel Brian needs. Dr. Dan, once Brian puts on
( ... )
that Dan doesn't really look at Justin as an equal
That's fair. Dan's prior relationship was about two people already walking on the same path, in the same direction keeping each other company for awhile.
Justin engenders so many feelings and desires in Dan that it can be overwhelming.
"No, it wasn't like that," Justin said. "For Deb love really is a verb, you know? Not just a feeling. It's something she does. She wanted to make sure I knew she was still doing it to me."
"And this is a good thing?" Dan clarified, only half-joking.
Justin chuckled. "Yeah," he said, suddenly seeming shy of all things. He turned away from Dan's gentle stroking. "It is."
That's how Brian loves, too. And Justin turns away from Dan when he admits that this is a good thing. Shy? Hiding what he needs...
Oh yeah...we're cooking with grease now. Or, I guess in Brian's case it should be canola oil? *loves*
"Fuck you!" Justin said, the words delivered in a strangled whisper. "I learned my lesson about counting on anyone to fucking support my ass! I'm never, never gonna be stuck with no place to go the next time someone decides they're fuckin' done with me!"
Jesus, Justin makes me ache for him. I can see this scene going down and it had to have been horrible. Poor Justin. That rug getting pulled out from under him hurt in more ways than one.
Love me some flustered Dan. Love me some *fuck-you-Brian-for-making-me-doubt* Justin. And, as always, love me some Myrna Brian. Bwahaha. What a fucking bastard. God love him- I do.
"You of all people know I am totally full of shit," Brian said, he leaned in close again, his intimate whisper his most effective means of convincing Justin he was sincere. "I fucked up at the end with you. You deserved better, all right? But to just trash everything you wanted... Justin, God, come on."Meep
( ... )
Holy Christ! When you wind up and let it go, you can really bring the heat.
I love this Dan and I think the Dan/Justin pairing had real potential.
I also love your Brian and the way you let him grow, just a little at a time, that it seems believable -- and what he needs in the moment.
But it's Justin, this time, that just kicks ass and takes names..."Fuck you!" Justin said, the words delivered in a strangled whisper. "I learned my lesson about counting on anyone to fucking support my ass! I'm never, never gonna be stuck with no place to go the next time someone decides they're fuckin' done with me!"If that ain't the lesson for Justin, I don't know what is
( ... )
one sad thing, to me, is that all this seems to be turning on Dan's inability to have sex (or express any emotion) in public.
Most of the subjective "opinion" about Dan's reluctance to display physical affection is filtered through Brian. In his mind, I think he veiws it as a kind of lie; a way of denying who he is or more specifically who Justin is. Which is so hypocritical of Brian who is always denying who Justin is, but Brian is the king of "Do As I Say" when it comes to Justin!
Thanks so much for the feedback! Dan's own irritation at himself on this front is somewhat more complex, as I trust will be revealed in later chapters. Much of it now has been shown to be a midlife "re-evaluation," of sorts!
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I think Dan, having endured far less trauma in his life, is less complex than Justin. I'm not sure complex is really the word, but he is who you think he is and because of that, he assumes Justin, for the most part, is who he says he is. That Justin has been blindsided by tragedy is not lost on Dan, of course, but he does not assume that there is a "real" Justin underneath the young man he's come to know.
I don't think that's Dan's fault--it's no one's fault, really, because Justin is not intentionally misleading him--it's simply the reality!
Thanks so much for the comments!
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That was so fuckin' good! Oh, Brian, you are always in my heart.
"Well, I care," Dan said firmly. "God, I'm sick of being such a..." He paused, searching for the right word.
"Prude?" Justin suggested. Dan swatted him on the rear, though the covers absorbed most of the blow. Justin laughed. "Such a what then? Ninny? Girl? Ninny prudey girl? What?"
"Whatever," Dan said, deciding he preferred not actually labeling what he was exactly. "I was thinking...let's go to Babylon. I want to... mix things up a little."
So hilarious. Wow, Dan is a real mixer-upper, what with the dancing at such a hedonistic homosexual establishment. I can just imagine what would happen if he accidentally walked into the backroom. I'd expect the same appalled reaction you'd get from a straight guy. Or maybe I'm just being too hard on dear old Dan. ;)
Christ, all hail the conquering hero. He operates on some 12-ton whale, but he can't kiss his lover in a coffee shop.The only fuel Brian needs. Dr. Dan, once Brian puts on ( ... )
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that Dan doesn't really look at Justin as an equal
That's fair. Dan's prior relationship was about two people already walking on the same path, in the same direction keeping each other company for awhile.
Justin engenders so many feelings and desires in Dan that it can be overwhelming.
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"And this is a good thing?" Dan clarified, only half-joking.
Justin chuckled. "Yeah," he said, suddenly seeming shy of all things. He turned away from Dan's gentle stroking. "It is."
That's how Brian loves, too. And Justin turns away from Dan when he admits that this is a good thing. Shy? Hiding what he needs...
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Yeah, I think you're right!
Thanks for the comments!
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"Fuck you!" Justin said, the words delivered in a strangled whisper. "I learned my lesson about counting on anyone to fucking support my ass! I'm never, never gonna be stuck with no place to go the next time someone decides they're fuckin' done with me!"
Jesus, Justin makes me ache for him. I can see this scene going down and it had to have been horrible. Poor Justin. That rug getting pulled out from under him hurt in more ways than one.
Love me some flustered Dan. Love me some *fuck-you-Brian-for-making-me-doubt* Justin. And, as always, love me some Myrna Brian. Bwahaha. What a fucking bastard. God love him- I do.
"You of all people know I am totally full of shit," Brian said, he leaned in close again, his intimate whisper his most effective means of convincing Justin he was sincere. "I fucked up at the end with you. You deserved better, all right? But to just trash everything you wanted... Justin, God, come on."Meep ( ... )
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Hee! Thanks so much for the feedback!!
In trading up Brian with Dan he gains so much more self respect for himself but loses *Justin*- the carefree, excitable, dreaming boy.
Oh, man! WAH!
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I love this Dan and I think the Dan/Justin pairing had real potential.
I also love your Brian and the way you let him grow, just a little at a time, that it seems believable -- and what he needs in the moment.
But it's Justin, this time, that just kicks ass and takes names..."Fuck you!" Justin said, the words delivered in a strangled whisper. "I learned my lesson about counting on anyone to fucking support my ass! I'm never, never gonna be stuck with no place to go the next time someone decides they're fuckin' done with me!"If that ain't the lesson for Justin, I don't know what is ( ... )
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Most of the subjective "opinion" about Dan's reluctance to display physical affection is filtered through Brian. In his mind, I think he veiws it as a kind of lie; a way of denying who he is or more specifically who Justin is. Which is so hypocritical of Brian who is always denying who Justin is, but Brian is the king of "Do As I Say" when it comes to Justin!
Thanks so much for the feedback!
Dan's own irritation at himself on this front is somewhat more complex, as I trust will be revealed in later chapters. Much of it now has been shown to be a midlife "re-evaluation," of sorts!
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