I haven't written in awhile. Should I feel guilty that my life is going so well? I wish that my friends could enjoy the security and happiness that I experience. How can I make it that way or is this all just out of my control ( Read more... )

Hey there! I haven't written in awhile. I just finished reading my friend Christina's journal and it made me incredibly sad... I never had the opportunity to say goodbye to her and I don't know if I will ever see her again... The tears are flowing now... I am currently in Mount Olive, North Carolina. I miss Potsdam and the wonderful friends I had ( Read more... )

The beginning ( Read more... )

We have plans and expectations, but be prepared for the inevitable; change and broken routine.

Well I read a book last night called Life in the Fat Lane... I thought that I was going to be reading a book about anorexia, but it was about a skinny girl like many of us who continued to gain weight. It was terrifying to read... She had a rare condition that I cannot recall the title of... No matter how much she exercised or how little she ate ( Read more... )

I have various journals for various topics. This is my secret journal that very few know about... People that I am in actual contact with... This is the journal where I write my deepest darkest secrets in regards to my eating disorder ( Read more... )

This is so ridiculous, but I don't care. I am becoming super obsessed as of late with being skinny. People tell me that I'm skinny, but they must be lying, full of shit. I am fat! I need to loose twenty lbs. When I resume classes in late January I want there to be a noticeable difference. I can't accept being 140. That is an unbelievably disgusting ( Read more... )

So, now that I have completed semester one of my fifth and final year here at Potsdam it is time to relax. I am currently in the library b/c I don't have a computer of my own. I'm really tired, b/c I haven't been sleeping well... I'm currently working on my thesis. I want a rough draft completed by the end of break. I also would like to read at ( Read more... )

I haven't written in quite awhile... b/c I use another journal... the one in connection with myspace. I've been writing a lot in my personal journal. I've almost filled book number two this semester. I just wanted to say hello. I don't remember who my readers were or anything of the sort, but that is alright. I'm currently in merrit working on two ( Read more... )

I apologize for sort of dropping off the face of the plannet. The Last few months of school got incredibly busy and now here I am, summer break and pretty soon I will fall by the wayside once more for I will be starting my job soon ( Read more... )