i need something to belive in again. something to inspire. something to get me out of this boring repetive day after day routine.    novel, art, music. anything.   any suggestions?

oh yeah. i have kittens. again. neck week they will be 6 weeks old and therefor the selling age.  anyone want one? come on a cute little puff for free? handled by people so much they hear voices and come runing down the hall( and then slide and hit things because their still a bit wobbly on hardwood floors).
3 of them.
foster is keeping the white one ( Read more... )

in short i blame tool for me wanting to be an animator and special effects person ( Read more... )

Thigns going back to the stage that no one wantes to be at. Im here though-again…overwheliming senseof being totally alone. Of fear of appproval. Fierce hatreed all forced on my inside-on me. Not the right body. Not the right face. Not the right skin. Clothes. Shoes. No balance. No confidence. No wil anymore. No sense of herself. No ability to ( Read more... )

i haven’t written much. everyone writes about their first days at school, in a new city, dorm rooms and such... yet im still here- still stuck at the home because there is no way in hell my family can afford to pay ANY money needed for college- and so the 5th year at challenge it is. graduate with 78 credits if challenge will let me. pretty good i ( Read more... )

dillenger and dysrhymthia show tongiht.  was realy fucking good ( Read more... )

Im leaving for the airport in 30 min.  Off to LA!!!
I'll miss you kids.- and my kittens.

I leave for la in 3 days. Ill be there for  a month.  I guess it hasn’t sunk in because I’m not really excited , or worried or anything like I was before.  I’m just too busy thinking about everything I need to do before I leave.  Get…I’m doing none of it.  Sigh.  Well its 5 now.  And my dads waking up.  My brothers alarm clocks will start going ( Read more... )

the new tool album is uber good. so everyone go and buy it or download it- not like i give a damn. but if you buy it you get the oh so lovely album art and uber spify way that tool went all old photography like and comes with the lenses to look through and all. You can't get that online. well actually im sure you can, but its just not the same ( Read more... )

So im sick of being a brunette again. Time to go back to blond- especailly sense travis likes it more that way.
and so... sadly enough....i want my hair to look like a great deal of america at the moment.
misha barton (who i totally have a crush on by the way.)


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