finally almost getting rid of past demonds i have somewhat let the past go and move on. He was never going to tell me the truth so i figure just leave it alone right? sure why not!  In saying that i have met somene new. New ish i guess cause i have known him forever. But signs i gues are keeping me from truely being with him. For instance. his ( Read more... )

I often wonder just how far the law of karma will go. Like if it will go for as long as you do bad things or just go to 10 then end? I sure wish it is just until 10 because i dont think i can stop doing bad-ish things. And when i say badish things i mean like think bad-ish thoughts or the big one, cheat. Which isnt often but it has happened.  My ( Read more... )

So todays the first day i drove the crew to a location for rib fest and it wasnt as bad, but it was still anoying. Im not use to the bus and it isnt like i thought it would be. Its only a '01 and it drives a bit rough. but im sure i'll get use to it once i drive it more. The steering wheel bugs me because it wont come closer to me i have to reach ( Read more... )

So far this new job is fucking me over. Honestly how hard is it for someone to call when they said they would and let you know if you are working or not. I could have stayed at my old job longer if i would have known that i wouldnt be working this weekend.  My boyfriend also left for work and wont be back until sept at least. Everyone is leaving ( Read more... )

I got a driving job for the summer/fall and im sooo excited to get out of hamilton and go on the road. I'll be drivng through hamilton and going all the way west. its a pretty sweet job it seems like and im excited to start making decent money.

you think i'd be tired of not feeling anything..sadly im not. Yes somewhere deep...deep...deeeeeep down i feel like i SHOULD feel something for being bitchy and mean to the ppl i love or "love"..but i just cant, its like somehings in my head telling me not to..or that i just have nothing left to give, meh i dunno. Its weird to feel numb and not ( Read more... )

I'm tired of faking the little things. Like being happy,faking that I like people who I secretly hate just so things aren't aka ward. Tired of being nice to people who honestly don't care. Tired of pretending that I give a shit when I just straight up don't. You get into this patterns and developed these habits that feel natural to you. Some call ( Read more... )

Its funny reading over my old posts from highschool and realizing nothing has changed,yet some things have. Friends we said we'd always have in our life have moved on and out of our lives. Best friends have had babies and we have moved out of town ourselves. Yet we still have the same ol attitude we did. Im still stubborn like i was in highschool, ( Read more... )

Wow i havent updated in a while.
I've been working 5 days a week.sukks but its money so thats ok
Callandra quit at work. i miss her alot and im sad, life goes on i guess
27 days until my bday, and so many more until xmas. which means the sad times will roll in, personal reasons and the loss of a loved one.

So its the last day of sept, crazy eh? i havent updated in awhile, i think since jill had kaylee, weird
So my cousin had her baby, and named her kylee, and yeah, lol its a really short post, so tata