i am not a pretty girl
that is not what i do
i ain't no damsel in distress
and i don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear ( Read more... )

I'm sick of negative nacys who want to burry their head in the sand and not come up to face reality. Think that's gonna help you? NO. Anyone who ever achieved anything in this world had to work for it, it came from hard work. Whether that work aided evil or good, it was still work. You have to work for love. You have to work for money. You have to ( Read more... )

I made new friends. I actually met a lot of new people this term. Last year I don't know if I was doubled in depression too badly to meet people or if the lowly insanely large classes I was taking prevented me from meeting my own kind of folk to hang out with or what? I did meet Heidi, but them after that term she graduated and left. And then there ( Read more... )

I got an e-mail from my Dad and now I can't stop smiling. It feels good to know both of my parents love me. I think this is the first time in my life that I have felt this. And that feels good.

I'm really depressed about Sam moving back home. We have become so close over the last year. She is one of the few people I know that cares about plants. And I love cooking with her. And I was excited that I had someone in Eugene to frolic around with. I was sad when she moved down there...but Florida is farther. Not an hour drive from me. I have a ( Read more... )

Anger. Violence. Rage. That is all you want to feed yourself. You push away everything that cares and force yourself into your lonely hole of depression. I can be pushed to a point and that point is close. I hate your anger, I hate your rage. I hate how you always hurt people. I hate how you start shit and then feel bad about people attacking you ( Read more... )

wELL...I have been catching up like cazy. I really need to shower, but there was no soap. A thing which has made it's way to the shower, yet I have not yet. Been reviewing Chemistry, eating delicious pancakes and eggs that Scott made for me this morning. (I think I have grown an addiction to Sriracha :/ and jasmine tea, but not together.) Chemistry ( Read more... )

Yep. It's as nasty as people say it is. Except I'm not dead. Just felt like dying for a couple days. The cough is hellish. The fever is nasty. And well at least it is a short lived illness. (except for this cough, which means I probably have pneumonia or something?) Missing a midterm tonight. Going to take it next Tuesday instead. Going to have one ( Read more... )

Chemistry: I wonder when I will hit the point when I find this stuff hard? I love Chemistry. It's so ridiculously common sense. It just...clicks right away. Granted I have a vast base knowledge built up, but you know those rumors about O Chem being sooo hard. I look over the syllabus and see half known material half new but not so frightening ( Read more... )

Olympus E-420. 40mm-150mm telephoto lens, 35mm macro, and standard 14-42mm. With tripod and cables. Should come in the mail soon. $425. Reading "Understanding Exposure" Bryan Peterson. EXCELLENT book! Bravo. Refreshed what I knew and gave me some pointers at how to take a correct meter reading in some tricky situations. Now I want that camera to ( Read more... )