moving on and planning new things and praying what we have planned and hoped for will soon be here...its been tough with all that has happened but with the goddess's help we will be alright. i know that she doesnt give us more than we can handle, i just wish it wasnt soooooo much. if i did not have mike, our families and our true friends along for ( Read more... )

well its sad that yet another chapter in our lives has to be closed and that it has to be left behind...i was not expecting this all to happen...it was a shock to say the least. why is it when you know that you are doing the right thing that you are the ones who wind up feeling bad? but at least we made it thru and we can move on with our lives and ( Read more... )

again i cannot say really too much now as i do not need this used against me at this time, lets just say that there is a change in the air for the better and to get us thru this mess i ask for candles lit and prayers said....bb

cant say too much as the walls have ears and eyes...just keep a candle lit and a prayer said for us and we will be fine...

well say goodbye to a sister and then still feel bad aboutit....this sucks. but this has happened before and this time i am afraid its permanent...ah well time to cut my losses and move on. why is it that as i get older that this is happening more and more? does anyone know??

the weather matches my mood thats for certain...just checked out the weather and its rain, rain and more rain. there is a chill to the air and whilst i am thankful the heat is still on it just happens to come right up in full force where i sleep and i wake up all congested and coughing. dont ya hate it when you wake yourself up like that? so what ( Read more... )

yea some good is starting to happen with an old friend appearing in my life...but i feel something weird coming soon and i am not sure what it is....it feels bad, real bad. it would explain all the bullshit that we have been dealing with. ya know sometimes having this gift is good and sometimes its bad.

so everything is not perfect but its getting better. FINALLY(lol) got back to talking with an OLD friend and we are talking just like before...a brother sister thing which proves to you all out there that men and women can be JUST friends! HA! bb, gracie

family is not always blood it can be a state of mind too. and sometimes that is better than being actually related to them. it sucks enough when you have to swallow your pride and ask a HUGE favor and you know the guilt price but still....goddammit. thats all i have to say!

same old stuff just a different day. the only thing that has really changed is the weather. its starting to get warmer and that is most welcome here at the house. the heat is getting shut off during the day and the windows are being opened to air out the old stale winter air. when we take hera out to do her business i take along the cigs and just ( Read more... )