I saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies, and all the lovers with no time for me...

[mysticfire124]

I just feel so destroyed and so broken inside. You know you expect when you try to lead your life the best way you can that the one person you choose to give your heart to would at least treat it a little bit better. But no....I just...I can't even talk about it. In my mind i could write pages among pages of the things that he has done, and the

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[equivoke]

Totally get you, Jesse. It's really terrible when the people you feel really close to drift away or push away. Or whatever.

Sorry things are shitty.

[mysticfire124]

it's all whatever...but yeah, i wish they werent shitty either. thanks :)

[equivoke]

Sure thing. Let me know if I can do anything.

[peachykeen827]

Just want you to know that I had lots and lots of fun riding with you to Rock Hill and back. Oh and the aforementioned person in your post is just an asshole...that's all.

he liked my brownies...

[mysticfire124]

I had so much fun riding with you too; you are definitely a person i would love to go on a road trip with again! Simply because you are so much fun to talk to or even just to sit and listen to rock music. <3 thank you for being an ear this weekend...I know i just kept going on and on and on about it. ;)

Oh, and i have your shirt, washed and ready for you whenever you want me to drop it back off. :)

[sakuraxblossoms]

<333 jess you rule. don't let some schmuck get you down.

[mysticfire124]

thank you...and I'll try <3

[kopakatoa]

I'll try to keep it short and sweet, since your mind is frazzled enough.

You're one of the strongest people I know. So just knowing the type of person you are makes you so much better than all the negativity you're feeling. I know you will overcome, because you always do. Besides, I'll tolerate you being down and broken about as much as you'll tolerate it from me. Which is next to none, if at all.

And as I've already shared to you, I know what it's like to have someone so integral to who you've been and mean so much to you just up and flip the script on everything that's been running. And because you're strong and optimistic - nay - because you're Jessica, this too shall pass, and, in the words of one of my favorite songs, "you'll shine brighter than anyone does."

Really, don't take this as a motivational speech, 'cause you really don't need one. Take this simply as an affirmation of my support for you. I hope to hear from you soon.

Oh, and nicely done on the headline. Glad to see I'm making at least a small impact on you. *grin*

[mysticfire124]

yeah..the headline is definitely appropriate and I've been listening to that song and the Hum halleluja song like crazy.

Thank you Brad, I know you are always there and yeah, somehow things will get better; it's just going to take a while. I don't mean to keep talking about it...I guess it's just that this was the biggest betrayal and my first true betrayal of a friendship and love that i ever had to deal with and i wasn't prepared.

I promise that at some point this week I will kidnap you and we will play tennis. Thanks Brad for the ear and the words. :)

[obscuresque]

Jess, it's always hard for someone that is everyones backbone is crushed. I really wish that I could say something nearly as inspirational as you normally say when there's something wrong in my life and i post about it. I wish I could conjure the right words to truly make you feel complete again

[mysticfire124]

thank you for understanding my need to pull the car to the side of the road and walk back home. ;) I'll never forget that...me trying to be all cool and sly and then just ending up the fool once more lol.

Thank you joe, I really don't think i would have been able to write this better and i know you are a good friend and of all people you understand what im going through as well. Movie buddy...we will always be secret lovers!

Thank you for everything. I know we dont see each other a lot, but its nice to know someone is out there. <3

Jess