Because I can. Because I don't post here anymore anyway, because it doesn't hurt to be stupid. I know it doesn't work. But I'm tired of reading OTHER chains and having them wish bad love life on me, considering I've had bad luck with that all my life. Because the one guy I like the most is so hard to read, and then at a bar spends half the night ( Read more... )

I need to stop writing emo-shit. Mostly on myspace...'cause people actually read that...and all kinds of random people, even if I set it to friends-only. And it's stuff that's generally true but later I read it, or something talks to me about it, and I'm like "god, why did I post that, it's all just piss-piss-moan-moan with me, isn't it?" lol. Like ( Read more... )

So I think I can finally forget and move on. It's blatantly obvious there will never be anything between us again. And I'm not going to go screw up his current relationship/marriage without just cause. Things between us just aren't the same as they used to be, even on the friendship level. I kind of miss the endless discussions we used to have, ( Read more... )

And so I shall rant, seeing as there are at most TWO people that may ever even take the time to read this anymore, and most of the time, neither do. I suppose I WOULD rather people know my thoughts and give advice, but more often than not, you feel stupid a day later when everyone knows what stupid little things you fret about ( Read more... )

So uhh ( Read more... )

Lol. So I went to California for Spring Break this past week. Just got back tonight..technically yesterday. Saturday, regardless. I went with Milessa and Kirsten, and Kirsten went to see her boyfriend Richard. It's safe to say we had a blast. I'll be putting up a slideshow on myspace soon hopefully, though I have a lot of homework to catch up on. ( Read more... )

Long time no post. I'm not going to be updating here very often but I wanted to rant a bit in a place more private than myspace. At least anyone that reads my LJ here will know the history behind the post, unlike those on myspace ( Read more... )

So all the feelings of being lost and confused...I guess I finally found my way out. Field Training seems to have given me that escape, without me knowing it...but I feel horrible about it. I didn't necessarily want an escape from HIM, just from the tormet I stupidly put myself through, and now as a way out, I've inadvertently ceased communication ( Read more... )

No, another person didn't die. An entire guild did. Yes I'm talking about WoW, and the Einherjar was my family for an entire year. I met lots of awesome people and had great memories. I never thought this day would ever come. As pathetic as it may seem, I actually cried over it today, and I'm starting to again. I'm sitting here pulling an all- ( Read more... )

So over the last few days he's seemed a little indifferent. I got tired of trying if he wasn't going to care, and tired of being jealous over a girl who seemed too obsessed with him. He humors her selfishness I swear. So I told myself I was done working myself up over it, done trying to talk to him 24/7 when the conversations would go nowhere. It ( Read more... )