http://finishticket.com/track/tranquilize-2I don’t want to know, I’ll just let it play out ( Read more... )

It seems cold hearted should be my new nickname. I've been called that by a few people this year already. They just don't know how I truly feel and how much. I protect my feelings and their's as well, but they can think whatever they want. I am not mean by nature especially not without a good reason ( Read more... )

I've been feeling like I want to self destruct again. I'm not at ease with myself lately. I'm trying very hard not to cave in by getting out more and talking to good friends. I feel this urge to reach out to her and take her company in but I'm not sure. I feel this huge emptiness inside that I need to fill. I'm not sure what will make me feel ( Read more... )

I recently re-opened the possibility of sharing my heart again and ofcourse rejection was the outcome. It's okay....it didn't hurt that much. It was expected even though there are some missing answers. I should carry on and not speculate anymore.

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I think I am done putting myself through emotional roller coaster rides with certain people in my life. It is so exhausting having to go through weekly arguments and having things misinterpret. I am done trying to be nice all the time trying to spare these people's feelings. If only they can see how hard it is to do what I do for them hoping ( Read more... )

Since I've sprained my ankle a few weeks now, my mood have been off lately. I've been more withdrawn and easily irritated by those around me. I have also found myself thinking a lot about him, too. The other day as I drove up to Butte County to take an exam, I felt a lot of anger and resentments come over me about him. All I could think of was ( Read more... )

Today I am feeling a dose of nostalgia overcoming me. At work it felt like the Monday blues. I also miss a few people but I won't let them know. I've learned it is best not to say some things anymore and to keep those thoughts tucked away. It seems I have become quite reserve with my feelings now but that's okay. It's probably what I need to ( Read more... )

Love have always been a confusing topic for me. Somehow I have managed to have two people fall in love with me effortlessly by just being me recently. One has been around for a few years now and one within this week. I don't think I have any deep feelings for them, but I do care about them. Sometimes I wonder if I should really give one of them ( Read more... )

I'm excited to say that my work schedule for all my jobs will be looking good come around next month with having weekends off. I still need to put more efforts back into applying for more jobs and look into more certification or schooling programs. I have come up with so many alternatives in regards to work. I also need to stop wasting time and ( Read more... )

I've come to find that distance is a good thing to give to people around me. I don't have to think so much into something that may or may not affect me as much as how it would only drive me crazy thinking about it. Maybe it's a defense mechanism for now or maybe I really don't want to care anymore. But whatever it is, distance have become my ( Read more... )