This has to be the hardest time in my life...

[mysticpoet]

I am so depressed right now. My friend Dianna's mom just called me and informed me that she died this morning. She died of some rare lung disease that destroys your lungs lining. I can't believe it, 21 yrs old. I had lost contact with her for a few months and I just talked to her online last week. I hate this. I would give anything to have been

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[dixie_at_heart]

Oh Misty that is horrible. Did I know her?
I am so sorry that this had to happen but if you would have followed through I would be a depressed psychotic mess right now...I mean I have a picture of you next to my bed in some fairy wings and one on my office at work from this summer of you trying to lick me, I have pictures of you in my HUGE overalls and ones of us in our "Sunday best". I see your stinkin pretty face everyday and oh I can't even fathom it.
I love you and I am so sorry about your (and everyone elses) loss

♥

[gabbybaby1984]

I'm so sorry about your loss hun. It's always a shock to lose someone so young so suddenly. I am so glad that you did not follow through... if you would have followed through, there would have been so many people that would be left shocked and heartbroken. So many people that care that would miss you immensely. Even though we haven't known each other that long, you have made an impact in my life, and I can't imagine it without your friendship. You are a wonderful, amazing person. You are strong, Misty, and you were meant to get through this. I know it hurts now, but there was a reason why you survived, and though you may not see it now, you were meant to remain on this earth.

I think that you were meant to get back in contact with her when you did, and I am sure she already knows that you love her and are thankful to her.

I know you are in pain now, and I wish I could help take it away. If there is anything I can do, anything at all, please let me know.

[mysticpoet]

Thank you both. I love my friends dearly and it just hurts so bad. I know I'm meant to be here but sometimes I just need to vent. I would never be so selfish as to try to take my own life again. I just wish there was something I could do to avoid the pain for awhile until I feel strong enough to process everything.