Today I say FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mystikal1]

I hope YOU bleed to death. I wish a life of hell upon YOU. YOU have hurt me too bad this time. I hate ME because of YOU. I am breaking down because of YOU. YOU diluted who I am. I have a bleeding sole because of YOU. Tell me, how to mend my sole? Fuck YOU, You'd be lying anyway. I want YOU to wake up and feel the guilt that YOU deserve, I want it

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[bgdftnsfn]

I pity him and would hate to feel your wrath. If I could only wrap my arms around you and take away the pain, I would. We were talkin, then you left! I don't know what happened??? Candice, just remember what i told you today, not as if I expect it to be any consellation, But I think you are amazing!

[mystikal1]

R you home?

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[bgdftnsfn]

I am now, of course it is now 8:00pm

[dadiezlildefect]

i feel your pain, these same thoughts go threw my haed..but alass i love him to much to say these things...you cant jsut leave someone after 4 and a half years..you just cant..god this sucks

[mystikal1]

I wish I could take him and make him feel the great memories that burn on my heart now and make me cry. How can my memories and my feelings of what we had be so good (except for the alcoholism) and he be able to just reject them like he does? I just want to be over this already. I want the baby to be here, and I want to be completly healed of all the pain he has caused me and I want to feel what happiness, and joy feels like again.

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[dadiezlildefect]

i am in the same exact boat, i am sick of the hot tears that burn my face, i am sick of the memories of his smile burne din my mind...of how great he was...but all he remembers is the bad...the pain needs to stop for both of us. i am here is you need me!

[mystikal1]

Same here, email me anytime candice@contactmail.com, and I'll give you my number if you ever wanna vent.
hugs

[batt]

What happened Candice? =\

[mystikal1]

Just my babies Daddy fucking with my already overwhelmed stress. If it doesnt kill me it will make me stronger right? Or at least make me strong enough to kill him. Fuck it.

[maybesomeone]

So, a normal, stressful day in Candi-land?

[mystikal1]

Nah, I threw a razor at his stupid ass, with the entire intention of hurting him, little bit of compressed feelings surfacing, I cant handle all the crap anymore. I got some really bad news today to top it off, actually this news is worse than anything he could ever do to me. I will post later.

[bigdogg]

ummmm........did I miss something? *reads again* I guess this sounds bad whatever it is so I hope ya feel better.

[mystikal1]

Thanks, im sure it wont always feel this intense.

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[bigdogg]

Yeah, some bitch I had a thing for at college (Meghan since you read my journal) decided I ain't shit no more and doesn't talk to me anymore since we're more than a floor apart. I was pissed at first how one day she tells me we have a bond then I ain't shit and I find out she talks shit about me behind my back but then i realized that sulking would do nothing so I've moved on, waiting for my first opportunity for revenge ;) You'll get over it after awhile too, no pains last forever.