i'm watching oprah and playing on justin's com[uter while he naps... today is totally surreal- i'll write more later, but i'm just realizing how much we've both changed and i am doubting the last 6 months of my life--- what a terrible feeling. doubting who i am and all i've done.... UGH. back to oprah.

"you ask me what i missed the most while you were gone and i say i dont know where to begin... i missed your face, and talking sexy to you. i missed the way you would touch me and whisper in my ear, or maybe it's the way my fingers slid so gently down your collarbone. you ask me if i love you and i say it's more than that. i explain to you that ( Read more... )

david, i loved you once. you were my completion, my center. You were my all. what are we doing? where have we been ( Read more... )

i've had such a nice weekend-- no complaints.. last night jason called and we went on a lovely date to barnes and noble--- it was nice, he's a good good-night kisser. :-) hahaha, we nearly had people convinced we were dating. it was hot. i adore jason- hes so hot with his new haircut. we ended up meeting up with sam, jackie, boy, aubrey, and lauren ( Read more... )

i will say it right now- i am probably the worst when it comes to dealing with death... so i went to mrs teresa's funeral this morning, or rather, afternoon. i think it was the first time since i was "christian" that i felt comfortable in a church, which makes me feel like she was really special because i always feel so awkward and ready to leave ( Read more... )

#1- i adore dido, and think i have taken to listening to her music possibly too much... its just so good, and so ME. rah ( Read more... )

Justin's mom died... I dont know why I am so affected by this but i am. As many issues as we have between us, justin has really been a vital part of me for the past 2 or 3 years, and he really is a best friend. i dont know how it happened... and i feel like i should be doing something- not to make myself feel better, i want to make justin feel okay ( Read more... )

whoever is writing about jp being smelly- stop... it's not jp's journal, so please dont write about him in here. i think its just unnecessary and causes nothing but ill feelings.

i feel obligated to post in reply to the many comments made in my journal over the last post- mainly over one tiny sentence at the end... THE POST WAS ABOUT MY SHITTING MY BRAINS OUT- NOT ABOUT WHO IS A BETTER FRIEND! I am not saying any of this to hurt anyone- but i feel as though i need to be honest about the way it mademe feel... here goes ( Read more... )

my ears are ringing and it is so effing annoying ( Read more... )