When and how do you decide that it is time to let go of a dream? Ten years ago I got my first job at a farm and I've wanted to have my own ever since. Ten years. I am really no closer today that I was back then. I'm no closer than I was twenty years ago when I didn't want to farm. We bought a property with broken down greenhouses and that is still ( Read more... )

I have just noticed that the only thing I posted publicly last year were toward the very beginning with nothing past January or March, somewhere around there. That makes sense because everything seemed to stop after that. My father passed away early last year after I would have last publicly posted. Since then I have been just a mess. I may be able ( Read more... )

I have written and deleted this a couple of times now. I go into way too much detail and it gets really long. So I will try to keep it shorter. I hate my job. I feel like what I do is morally and ethically wrong. I do not like that Pablo finds it so easy. I do not like who we have become by continuing to work in this industry. Pablo says he just ( Read more... )

I was just looking, and it seems that I only posted on here three times in total last year. I'm not sure if that makes me realize that I should just walk away from it completely since I don't really use it, or decide to post much more often. It somehow makes me feel as if I want to do both ( Read more... )

Nothing much has changed since I was last here, so I'm not exactly sure why I came back. I guess a couple of things have slightly changed ( Read more... )

I haven't been here in quite a while. I went back and read the last couple of things I had written to try not and repeat myself so much. Seems it has been ten months since my last visit. Is it a good thing that I haven't had anything eventful enough to post about it ten months, or is it a testament to how boring my life is? 50/50 I suppose ( Read more... )

I have been sitting here typing this for a while now. I deleted it all to start again. I feel like I have a lot to say, but can't. I don't know if I don't have the words or I have too many of them ( Read more... )

The second half of my week has gone better than the first half. I am feeling pretty good ( Read more... )

It's Christmas day, today. I am sitting at home alone while Pablo is working. There are lots of things about this job that I do not like, but even if I didn't work there anymore today's situation would still be the same. Hopefully he will be home soon. It being Christmas doesn't really matter, but it is nice to have an extra day to sleep in. Our ( Read more... )

I haven't been on here in a while. I just don't find the time anymore. Well, that and I suppose I don't really have anything of interest to post about. I still don't, yet here I am ( Read more... )