They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

so trevor and i are done for good now. i feel really responsible for the whole issue. i really screwed up badly. but i did have fun at times. i really will miss that kid. he brought so much joy into my life and made me smile all the time. i really hope that he and i will hang out atleast still. because he really is a cool kid. i love him to death. ( Read more... )

so turns out that trevor never really was grounded after all. he just tried to make an excuse so that he wouldnt be able to hang out with me. and so he had time to think of why he wanted to break up with me ( Read more... )

so trevor got grounded from having two f's and cant hang out this weekend. and ofcourse i was really looking forward to seeing him today too. man, im really bummed. i really wanted to see him ( Read more... )

so a week from yesterday will be two months with trevor. im excited. however i really wish that i could have seen him more. but i know that things will be much more better during the summertime. i dunno where i am going to work though. probaby white water. ill always be getting off at 8 and might have days off so that good. i cant wait until school ( Read more... )

so i went to trevor's house last night for about like an hour or so. it wasnt very long but it seemed so worth it. when ever im with him i tend to forget everything and just live in the moment. god i swear i am so in love with this kid. i know that right now our communication isnt very well, but i dont care. last night was probably the most fun ive ( Read more... )

so when trevor woke up and called me this morning he said that he was still feeling sick and that his blood sugar was 450ish or so. poor kid. i really feel like i should be there sitting on hus bed next to him, but im not. i dunno how to act when hes like this. should i call his mom and talk to her and see what she thinks? should i ask her if i can ( Read more... )

okay so maybe ive been a little too hard on this subject with trevor. hes sick, and i need to honor that and fulfill his needs way before mine. hes an unhappy person and its my duty in this world to make his like so much better. and im not helping much by complaining on how he never calls me ( Read more... )

okay so for about like 3 days now ive had this massive cold and then last night to make matters worse, i went to one of trevors baseball games. and i got even sicker because it was so damn cold outside. and trevor doesnt even like apologize or say thanks for going up to springfield and sitting in 40 degree weather for an hour and a half just to ( Read more... )

lately i have been getting a little agravated with my relationship status. trevor hardly ever calls an when he does we only talk for like 5 minutes or less. i have no idea what goin on in his life right now i couldnt tell yuo a damn thing. and its starting to piss me off. and i only get to see him one day out of the week. and thats usually at a ( Read more... )