now that the summer is coming to an end, and i should be packing for to move again, navel gazing presents itself as an attractive pastime. more so than usual ( Read more... )

so i'm on a c.s. lewis kick right now. and have stolen some of his metaphors to apply to my life as i see it right now ( Read more... )

since i moved into my sublet, i have been trying to co-exist peacefully with the flies that infest it. i am proud to say that (trying to live up to my hindu ancestors) i did not kill a single one - until last night. their numbers had dwindled during the slightly colder spell that we recently had, but they have returned...and then some. their ( Read more... )

yesterday i spent some time in a large indoor open space that was soaringly beautiful. it was dim (although light played on the walls) and still. the noise of traffic and other sounds of the outdoors were still audible, and i was very aware of the contrast between the stillness within and the bustle without ( Read more... )

i think i finally understand ( Read more... )

yesterday was a good day. i made a cake for (m)ein sehr wunderbares Freunds Geburtstag which turned out not terribly, spent some quality time with the above whom, and then went to the grad club where i was silent as the tomb while others talked but was yet very happy. i hope other people don't feel awkward when i don't talk - i sometimes worry ( Read more... )

i've been insanely busy over the past...week and a half or so. but it has definitely been worthwhile and productive. alas, 1 grosvenor is now but a fond memory, but i've enjoyed the two days i've spent so far in my sublet. last week featured much packing; the weekend was exclusively devoted to drudgery (cleaning) and moving. and yesterday it was ( Read more... )

vanessa and joe came up this past weekend, and that was great. it was nice to slip back into old routines, although strange to once again share this space i've now become used to as "mine". joe left with some furniture, so the place looks significantly emptier - dare i say better? - and also some key cookware: making brownies without a measuring ( Read more... )

so for the past couple of days i've been posting in my head, and not in actuality. this is much like everything in my life, but whatever. this is to remember ( Read more... )

earlier this week as i was tearing up lettuce i was wondering (and i'm still wondering because i have no answers. if you do, let me know) how to un-fuck someone up. this is tricky, since i've had little success with myself, and can only assume that trying to un-fuck up others would yield results too terrible to imagine. all i came up with (because ( Read more... )