Dont really know what I'm doing but decided what the hell, live journal it is today. On the outside my life is going fantastic I have a job that I like a freaking lot, a boyfriend who treats me like a princess and things are just very calm now. On the inside its a constant struggle everyday to keep myself smiling, I try to pretend like everything ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do with myself anymore, I've been so sad lately and I can't seem to find a way to dig myself out of the ever sinking hole of depression I've fallen into. Life is so not good right now, and I keep telling myself that if I make it through today something amazing could happen tomorrow that turns it all around but so far no luck, ( Read more... )

so i know that no one is perfect and everyone has there way of coping with shit, but what I dont understand is that if your trying to make yourself feel better and all the problems dissapear, but not hurting yourself in the process, why does/should it matter to anyone else how you get it done. I feel that in the end if you are happy it shouldn't ( Read more... )

Why does it seem like people are always out to get me? Do I have a sign on my back that says "yes, please hurt me?" because thats the way I've been feeling for the past....year now. Its like whenever I think things are starting to look up in my life, weather it be with school, work, or my social life, something just has to get in the way and shoot ( Read more... )

so life has been interesting lately, I can say that much. I haven't really had time to do anything because of school and work, but its okay. For the most part I feel like I've been in a cave where I shall remain for the next month due to work. Going to school each morning then training monday through friday 5-1 am is no fun, but I'm sure it will ( Read more... )

High school is over...so why can't we just let all the bullshit drama go

so after today only 2 more days of class left until I graduate, which I couldn't be more happy about. hum lets see what else is new....Finally got my senior pictures done this week end, that was fun, I saw some people I didn't wanna see and some people I haven't seen in a really long time, it was nice. ya know, its really weird how close people's ( Read more... )

I'm so torn bewteen things right now, I dont know what to do. Its been bad lately but things just keep getting worse. Its like people are trying to make me choose one or the other, but I want them both and there is no reason why I can't have both. People just need to grow up and get along, we're getting older not younger but people just dont know ( Read more... )

so the past few weeks have been really amazing and a little stressful. Kenny and I had our anniversary like a week and a half ago, that was nice he suprised me by taking me to Taste of Choas! yay we had so much fun even though it started raining when we started to smoke a joint, but what can you do mother nature has its way of doing things. My ( Read more... )

so Friday I was in the worset mood, I'm not really sure why, everything just seemed to piss me off for no real reason. Things have been pretty chill since then though, everything that was pissing me off got worked out on Saturday when Kristal and I and our mothers went looking at some prom dresses. I think I found the dress that I want but I still ( Read more... )