so nobody reads this. so i feel like writing in it. and i know someone will prolly read it but i dont care ( Read more... )

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so, i know that no one will read this. but im still gonna write it b/c i need to just let what's on my mind get out ( Read more... )

so, i said i was going on a live journal break but i just need to write right now ( Read more... )

so i've been thinking. been thinking alot. been thinking about everything. ive realized some things. ive accepted some things. and this has not eased anything for me. its still just as hard. i try to hard. i need to just let it flow. let things flow and just go with it. who cares what happens, just go with it. i have to stop caring so much ( Read more... )

why do i do this to myself
why do i torture myself
i need to let it all go so the pain will go away
its just not right to do this to myself

But you sit there silent, folded arms ( Read more... )

today... i did freaking nothing. it sucked so much. i woke up and was immediately put to work by my mother who gave me a long long (long) list of crap to do. so i did that till about 8 p.m. then i watched freakin t.v. cuz everyone was doing something. so, i spent the night alone. how much fun is that? none at all.

does she know?
she doesnt.
does she care?
she doesnt.
will it happen?
it wont happen.
what should i do?
....
this is the story of my life.

i love my ipod, its my girlfriend. but it's name is rupert, is that odd? i think i should rename it, cuz i aint no homosexual. i might have to dump it now.

tonight was fun. today was fun. it was an all around fun day. woke up at approxiamantly 1 in the p.m. then i had some b-fast. i then took a shower, very refreshing. i was then delighted to do some chores. but not really. after that i went to work out. then i was gonna chill with erin, but she was out. so i headed to d-rak's house and we hung out ( Read more... )