wait this is the weirdest thing EVER ( Read more... )

this is ridiculous. i am writing in this at this point merely because i have no one there any more to understand me. i dont want pity replies, i dont want you all to suddenly start IMing me again. i just need to get life off my chest for a second, and that means that i need to write it down. and frankly, there's so much on my mind, physical writing ( Read more... )

and just like that, i'm the it girl again

sometimes i wonder if love is just something you talk yourself into

today my cat threw up and my dog ate it. summer is boring thus far.

i am done my freshman year.

this feels amazing.

i love my life and my friends and everything.

i don't know if i have ever mentioned this on here before, but i keep having intense dreams that make me incredibly weirded out when i wake up. this is starting from about a month ago. here are a few, just to give the idea ( Read more... )

wow. i just got broken up with. with a fucking its not you its me thing. seriously? kill me now. i will never have something that lasts. i'm destined to die alone.

melodramatic, huh? FUCK. i just hurt so much. and i want it to stop. and i want people to stop hurting me. and i just want it to be good. and boring.

so i was seriously just about finshed posting a journal entry about how i hate my life and how i don't believe in god or religion, and the weirdest thing happened. before i could push post, everything worked out. well, mostly ( Read more... )

it just really upsets me that i have a dream that i pretty much can't reach. i love how i am actually failing every class important to my major and passing fucking classical judaism and english comp ( Read more... )