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Foreign Invincibility... & Need.
I've fussed, bitched, pissed and moaned about how i've just wanted to be able to feel at the very least OK... something i havent felt in a my entire life. Right now in this moment my pleas have not been in vain... i feel very ok to say the least, i feel motivation drifting in, uncertainty and the stressed focus of it draining... i fucking feel good ( Read more... ) -
Fool yourself, shame on you.
Is it wrong that i feel no jealousy when these stories pass her lips of those who pursue her? and yet i do without second thought because it's sheerly an instant reflex of my being...hmm. -
Wonderful
Just what do you do when youre with someone who has never been sexually satisfied and is convinced that they can never be? Especially when your own experience is less than probably the average sexually active young adult... I just dont know what to do and it really kills my motivation to hear her say that... But hell wtf can i do its the truth that ( Read more... ) -
i havent even felt the urge to cry in forever
but this did it ( Read more... ) -
Welcome to the best week of your life
Proudly sponsored by your local gsa hook up network... Utterly jk but anyhow.... Recall that stint of social dysfunction that pretty much confined me to these four walls, recall the previous attempts at getting to know others and their complete and utter failures from ten minutes after start til the crash and burn endings... Recall the awkwardness ( Read more... ) -
What is it
Seriously what is the point, showone thing an do the next. Im not trying to fuck up your little easter egg of a life fuck im even willing to cap off my feelings but you wont even give me that chance. Do you not trust yourself around me, arent you over the proverbial it? Why the hell should it matter? This snippy defensive pop top attitufe really ( Read more... ) -
In repair
Out of all the things i was never taught assured of or guided in i think the one that gets me most is that i was never told its alright to be afraid but you cannot let it limit you never instilled with confidence of assurance i learned to fAke it but we see that only gets you so far ill alwqys yearn for that support system but have to accept that ( Read more... ) -
Lb
Late bloomer... Thats how i originally saw it, but as i get older and seek myself deeper i learn more and more about why everything i so off. I was fucked from conception honestly. At least 18 years of feelings supressed and that will stay that way because honestly where are they going to go? This crude childish fucking dick sizing competition just ( Read more... ) -
Bugged
Its fuckin insane how u go to major extremes and put yourself in fucked situations for the world but for me u cant even answer a question. I guess thats why you alwayd end up fucke in the end, your own personal loop of karma i shouldnt be surprised but. The hurt and deciet is still just insane.
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Uz
Working on myself because i dont want you to want or even need for anything, i want to be able to provide everything u could ever imagine and even things you havent even thought of, even though your stubborness will keep you from inquiring. I will be there, giving you my all my everything because in my mind you are beyond worth it. And ill do ( Read more... )