Oregon has been refreshing thusfar, but of course there are always the thorns that precariously seek out and intrude upon the softest tip of your curiously wondering fingers...

The conflict of wanting nothing but the best for my "god" child versus remaining in my so called place is becoming a bit more than a headache.

The village is definitely not ( Read more... )

I don't accept complacence. I don't want to build any type of foundation with someone strictly because we can function well enough to be considered cohabitants. Fuck that, and me for being needy/greedy but i want fucking fireworks. I want as possibly close to "perfection" as I can possibly fall into. Which shouldn't be a lot to ask considering my ( Read more... )

if you don't allow yourself to... how will you ever know what you're capable of?
focusing energy on all of your "incapability" is a lethal form of poison.
to your life, to your progression, to your being...your spirit.
Carnivorous sucking your very self................................

Simplicity ( Read more... )

here i am again, self medicating for the safety of others and myself ( Read more... )

Perhaps its just me, or the fact that i'm used to my own family's personal chaos... it's the classic what doesnt hurt anyone/what they dont know won't effect them.... yeeeeeeaaaah that may have a tried and true charm to it in the hands of most, but clearly not everyone is capable of basing any institution on these practices. It's all kind of ( Read more... )

Ive noticed that lacking faith, and believing in nothing may just be the reason for my formulated mental and emotional chaos... one less way to breathe ( Read more... )

but i have this nasty little habit of avoiding people... keeping them at a safe distance or so i'm led to believe by my own delusions.

isolation from the familiar ( Read more... )

I've hled it for so many years... detesting myself even at times... i've moved past it and believed that i could keep it in shadows... i became something other than myself for a while.. until i finally let it out into the open... it ran it's course and died once the shock value wore off... but still it lays within me, i've accepted the fact that ( Read more... )