I don't know what to write. I don't know how to write it. I do know I am trying to fight what is happening to me. It's hard. I find myself stuttering because of all the random thoughts running through my head. It's always been something I can't help. Oh, and then there's loneliness rearing its ugly head again. Right now I wish someone would flip a ( Read more... )

i hate 6:30 in the morning. it's always so dull. i'm really fucking tired. something cool happened this week. it was a nice change of pace. someone reminded me of how much i miss hallucinogens. they were pretty cool while they lasted. that part of my lifes over now. i can't say those were the good ol' days because i don't remember half of em. i ( Read more... )

It's great having a clear perspective on life. My heart and my head are free of all worry. In the end I know everything will be ok. I have to start taking more chances though. In the past I was too afraid because of my pessimistic outlook on things. Now with this new way of thinking, anything seems possible. Life's too short to live behind the grim ( Read more... )

Who needs a valentine! I don't have a lot of money but I'm cool! Some people actually say I look good! Yay for exclamation marks! Ha but seriously, anyone need a valentine? If not I'll probably do what I always do. I'll get all the women/girls I know a single rose and a small box of candy. It always makes me feel better seeing a woman smile. It ( Read more... )

Man 5:20 in the morning is boring and lonely. I would go to sleep but I don't feel like it. Downloading music is fun. I'll do that instead. Lauren was supposed to stay up and hang out with me. What a sell out. I want some chicken nuggets. Man can a hangover occur while youre still drinking because I think that's what's happening right now. Screw ( Read more... )

man was i being stupid last night. ehhh what can you do? i just woke up. i've been sleeping later and later. i'm really grungy and i need a bath. i'll do it after work. i've let my appearance become very disheveled.

( here's the proof )

Last night/this morning was fucked up. I'm just glad everything was resolved and everyone is where they need to be. <3

I hate New England and their stupid Patriots. If you like the Patriots, I hate you too!!!! I'm lying. I'm just saying that out of anger. Both of my teams lost today and I'm upset. I hope the Steelers trounce the Patriots. That'll prove that the only good thing to come out of New England is Mark Twain!

Girls are evil. They all need to be shot or ran over.

I say boo to teasing girls. BOOOOOOOO!!

I miss my little sister. I haven't seen her in 3 weeks and I'm sad. She's the only person I can really talk to. She's the only one that really understands me too.

What's up with still having a crush on old flames. I say boo to that. <3