does anyone still use this thing? if so, congratulate yourself for your ivejournal endurance.

I'm slowly losing my grip on the awkward reality I live in. Everything seems hazy and unfocused. I am still constantly reminded of my insecurities and it seems I can no longer fight them. This trip. This grand adventure that's stuck in my head is all I have to hold onto. It's just a mirage though. A mirage I want to be so real I'd bleed for it. I ( Read more... )

24 yrs of age is about to slap me in the face. I don't feel like I've accomplished much, if anything at all. Last year this time I had a girlfriend and an apartment. This year I only have an apartment and I don't like it much. Also, I have a girl that I like not a girlfriend. I'm not even sure how she feels about me. She's weird. Who knows. I'm ( Read more... )

I lost 17 lbs. in a week and a half. Stress and not eating make for a good crash diet. I've started eating again but I'm still steadily losing weight. I weighed 165 last friday. Today I weigh 157. Hopefully it's a tapeworm. Why do I let the same girl keep breaking my heart? I'm kinda glad she came back to hurt me again. Since she's been around I've ( Read more... )

I want to breathe new air. I want to walk on new ground. I want to watch the world collapse and become something better. I want the quiet miracle of a normal life.

I feel like being emo this morning...

<3

hurricane rita sucked. a cool girl inspired me to write a cool song. and i'm possibly the worst drunk dialer ever! my life is amazing. well atleast i got a job....finally. <3

Hello all. How goes it? Well, I really don't have much to say. Not much has happened. Not much will happen. All I've been doing with my life as of late is reading. Lots and lots of reading. Tomorrow I'll be volunteering at the red cross. Finding a job doesn't seem as important as helping people. People need help and it's time for me to stop being ( Read more... )

i need more internet friends. i get really bored at work and i never have anyone to talk to. woe is me! seriously, i got this awesome nextel walkie talkie at work and it fucking rules. I'm all "10-4" and they're all "10-9". <3

I've gone from this....

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Last night is kind of a blur. I don't remember alot of went on. I think I may have smoked weed =\. I shouldn't have my cell phone when I'm drunk and depressed. If I bothered you last night I'm sorry. Things at the apartment are still kind of sketchy. One moment I'm moving out the next I'm not. It just seems like everything is my fault right now. I ( Read more... )