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For those of j00 who are too lazy to translate that, this journal is friends only.

I've lost friends. I've lost people I love. I've lost people I hate.

I have NEVER lost my self.
This is important to who I am. I built a persona of my worst qualities and people enjoyed it. People became friends with it. It amazes me. People have put forth the question who am I. The mask or the person under it.

Like that's even a serious question. I ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HpY3ggKAPIE

Well. That's mixed signals.

Maybe I missed something.

I miss being who we used to be.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't ( Read more... )

We work a great deal to be unique. To stand alone. It's something unique in our culture. We love the rebel.

I find my self pushed to the breaking point, something I haven't been at in years.

As the world hammers down at my shoulders, I plant my feel.

I've said it before, I'm tired of being tired. I'm sure I'll say it again.

I'm sure it's part of the ( Read more... )

She haunts me in my dream. Pale white, with blue markings. Her many eyes are sky blue ( Read more... )

I could write this a million ways.

I should be hurt. I should be angry. I should be hateful and destructive. I'm supposed to be heartless and demonic.

I'm supposed to accept it.

Fuck off all of that.

I love you. I always will. Have a good life, I'll be around.

"I hope you have not been leading a double life, pretending to be wicked and being really good all the time. That would be hypocrisy."
- Oscar Wilde