Mar 19 2020 - Thursday

Received good news this morning: teleconsultation for the OPD services will start today. Doc Kunting called and asked for volunteers from our batch.

Continuously chatting with Vina regarding their situation in Basilan. They were last to implement enhanced commynity quarantine becayse

Our classmate, Jessa, suddenly popped up on the groupchat and told us to listen to the mayor's announcement at 10:30 PM. It seemed like an urgent announcement. She said her brother got wind of the news that there is already one confirmed case in ZC. I said it's not improbable for us to have a positive case.

Earlier that day, a relative from Lanao ( Read more... )

I wonder what's that like.

I wonder how it feels to not be stuck in a moment that enslaves you over and over again.

I wonder what kind of happiness awaits me when I'm free from the nightmare you put me in. I thought I was done with the craziest I've ever been in but I guess you're a different kind of darkness I never thought I'd encounter in this ( Read more... )

The Islamic view on birthdays is an interesting one. While most people celebrate it as another year of life, it's haram (forbidden, same level of forbidden as eating pork) for us to even say happy birthday. The Islamic alternate view is that everyday brings you closer to your time of death. If you think about it that way then it's kind of illogical ( Read more... )

I can't sleep alone. I can't eat. Nothing tastes good. Telling myself to snap out of this doesn't help either.

One of those days when it's hard to bear. Writing it out always helps. I can't sleep when I'm wallowing in self-pity. I scramble for strength that this patience will pay off. Everything will work out in time. It always does, doesn't it?

I thought I'd let go of the belief that I destroy everything I touch. I thought I had stumbled into something ( Read more... )

This life feels like a time loop that is hard to undo. I'm already in a different place physically but the events always seem to unfold the same way. This is a product of my own actions and I've been trying to unlearn my old mindset with self-help books on mindfulness and consciousness. But I'm still here.. self-destructing, in despair.

My heart hurts. It's been hurting for a while now, I think most days I forget what it was like when it was full of love. It's supposed to be right here in my chest but my mind makes it seem like it's beating in every corner of my body. I can just be lying down but it's a frenzy of panic inside me. I feel always ready for a danger that is not even ( Read more... )

i hate you so much i want to sneak in on you when you sleep and cut your hair really nice. i would leave a note beside you saying i did it and that you're welcome. i'd love to see you in emotional chaos when you panic and look at the mirror to find out that you actually love the haircut - how it fell in the right places; how it was short enough for ( Read more... )

I find myself unwilling to give up
Now that I'm almost there
But the loneliness is gripping
Like being rubbed raw, laid bare