Why be hot for? huh? Why? Why? Why ( Read more... )

ok so i think im on that line of it being possible and it being too late to even try and i have a scarily low care factor. very very close to saying fuck it all im sleeping....but i don't want to fail masterclass. i hate this stupid assignment...actually no i take that back. this is actually a good assignment, i could have learnt loads if i had ( Read more... )

ching ching ching ching ching ching ching.....and i'm feelin gooooood. (nb ching equals piano chords)Today is feeling a bit better. huzzuh. spose it is a saturday and yesterday i actually practiced and it wasn't bad...in fact it was good. its strange how a saxophone has come to rule my life. i realised that while i have been thinking about giving ( Read more... )

Fuck. Just fuck it all. Damn it all. I'm going to bed.

OK I'm going to get roasted alive tomorrow. I am going to be unimpressive and that's an understatement. I just don't care enough anymore. I got some happy back again but I don't suppose it will last all that long. I was reading back some entries from the start of the year and I think I was more creative back then. This semester has just gone on for ( Read more... )

OH COME ON! SERIOUSLY NOW!

I want to quit. I want to quit college and music and saxophone. I'm bored and frustrated. I feel futureless. It used to make me happy. It's not what I live for anymore...but i haven't found something else to live for yet.

GET THE FUCK AWAY AND SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP FUCKING SHUT UP GO AWAY GET THE FUCK AWAY ( Read more... )

I have had the best damn weekend! Thursday night: Kel's place, Friday: chillin, Seabas', drinkin, sneakers crew, pyjama purple sneakers shut down by the cops haha, Saturday: THE GREAT ESCAPE AAHHHHHHHRRRR so good so good so good, Sunday: Easter, egg hunt around the house, church with the family (strange but good), big family lunch with nan and ( Read more... )

Like when times get rough ( Read more... )