these song of solomon questions are interminable!!!! I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANY LONGER ( Read more... )

so it was fine for those three days when i didn't have to do anything at all, just get rid of the pain by sleeping. but now that i actually have things to do, like homework and tutor, it would be nice if the giant headache in my face would GO AWAY ( Read more... )

but you try with your whole soul best
never to think these thoughts and never let
them kind of thoughts gain ground
or make your heart pound
but then again you know when they're around
just waiting for a chance to slip and drop down

agh! i still feel crazy!

sometimes it's like everybody else was born with a sort of human interaction instruction manual
and i never got one or read it.

interacting with humans for dummies.

i was looking at my user profile and the only thing lister under interests is gardening ( Read more... )

patiently awaiting the catch, the caveat
it's got to show up sometime

"in order to get the things i want, it helps me to pretend i'm a figure in a daytime drama, a schemer. soap opera characters make emphatic pronouncements. they ball up their fists and state their goals out loud. 'i will destroy buchanan enterprises,' they say. 'phoebe wallingford will pay for what shes's done to our family.'  walking home with the ( Read more... )

tonight i saw there will be blood ( Read more... )

eeeeeeeee

so i'm feeling happy. but i'm afraid to feel happy because i know that most likely i'm just building things up and there really is no reason to be happy and that being happy now will probably just end up making me even more miserable later. gah.

but anyway....
eeee!

ME CAGO EN LA LECHE DEL INVIERNO!
i'm going to start using the happy light again. hopefully it will do something. the winter just makes me so damned gloomy.

if you want me to, I can hang 'round with you
if I only knew, that's what you're into

you and him, him and you
if that's what you're into
him hangin' round, around you
you hangin' round, yeah ( Read more... )