no time for a proper update.. im heading to pachanga to spend s shit ton of money and get as drunk as possible.. fuck men, fuck lowlife no account people who tell you they care,,, fuck ME for being such a damn idiot and not believeing...

more later...
RIP Grandma... today is suposed to be celebrating you... *kisses*

what a mess lol. i get myself into the most eloquent messes!
i got laid off... boo
trying to find work right now sucks
richie is a putz lol but i <3 him and things have been going well.
gained a lil bit of weight back from all i lost at the beginning of the year... and here comes the holiday season! lol oh well, start again next year i guess! ^.^

an update... uhggggg life ( Read more... )

i was thinkin i would check this thing and all kinds of things would be different... haha same ol same!
update to come... im studying for my LAST FINAL lol
only took twice as long as it should but what eva... i graduate on Thursday!

i should have gone out tonight... im not exactly sure why i didnt, i want to see people and i wanted to go with tails and dani and venice, but going to LA seems so lame, im over raving, i cant believe it really. im going to shake like an earthquake... and mardi gras of course, but i dont have the desire to rave otherwise... wierd..

today is not such a good day... hormones are all out of whack cause i got my pills late so ive been depressed all day ( Read more... )

that goes by.. i relax a little more... i lost who i was for a little while... i miss my friends, i hope you really understand that i did this for us... i love you more than anything, and too much to lose you over some stupid bullshit ( Read more... )

im sick, i hate being sick ( Read more... )

living in san bernardino with the 909, venice richie nemo and pebbles, its pretty awesome most of the time... the stress level isnt nearly as big as i thought it would be... everyone works and pitches in and helps out. its nice... it just sucks that most night during the week i have to threaten lives to keep it quiet so i can sleep.. i wish my room ( Read more... )

why do i keep doing stupid shit like this... its like i get desperate for the attention i had and i do rash things.. nothing too terrible.. im enough of a tom-boy to know when im being irrational... but theres enough of the dumb girl alive inside to make me do things i shouldnt... like when he said he couldnt come over tonight, i should have just ( Read more... )