stick a fork in me I'm done. The smoke will once again rise.

For some unknown reason I feel as though I have no direction in my life. Constantly I question my existence and the same answer appears, which is to say, I haven't a necessity of being here. It may sound like the same old bs but I could go at anytime and I wouldn't care. I wouldn't leave much behind. I am so distant with my family that I want ( Read more... )

Big brother when you read this please get back to me ASAP. Certain events have unfolded and are spiraling out of my control immediate support is required. Details have been enclosed in last email as of 23-10-2006 at 2:12:11 PM. Little brother out.

To bother playing the game is futile once you already know the outcome - such is the life of Josh

yeh so I come home to see police squad cars parked, with lights flashing, around my house. First thinking my family got in trouble or it was just an accident I found out once inside my home that my neighbor had hung himself. My mom was in tears and my step-dad showed me through a side window of the dangling corpse in the garage. Tonight is so damn ( Read more... )

one hand firmly on a rail
other firmly on dice
one to keep me steady
other to keep me happy

should I let go of one,
play the game,
or remain the same?

the odds are 3:1,
looks pretty grim,
but if I won,
warmer than the sun...I'd be

throwing caution to the wind,
I'd fly away,
if I won...
my salvation can come

are you to be my bliss?

you play on my mind
like my 6-string
fretting each chord
just to hear me scream
and I think...
my pain, your pleasure

what I see now
just isn't for me
a string snaps
you retract in fear
you shed a tear
but...
I just don't care

Not sure of what or how to say (it ( Read more... )

All human beings... are commingled out of good and evil including I. Hating me is to thyself.

Oh how I love that people talk behind my back thinking that I won't find out, not. You think your sly in your timing and your twisted words but I see through your fascade and it comes as no suprise that you are this way. I intrust you with conversations that should be held within but I find them pumped out to the masses so that all can bring me ( Read more... )