All morning bzzzzz!!! bzzzz!!! bzzzz!!!! Im my morning stupor I am totally alarmed, perplexed, and maddened at the same time. bzzz!!! bzzzz!!! bzzzz!!!, bringing me to a lucid sleep from 6am, but never allowing me to quite get deep again, but at the same time not letting me reach a fully concious, coherent state. its 10:32 now, and I have ( Read more... )

....I've been longing for a woman so long that the more comfortable, more familiar way of life IS that actual longing; not having. I know life is full of irony, full of little dichotomies, and contradictions, but who would of thought I'd feel this way...its surprising yet not at the same time ( Read more... )

The stench of my eggs pervade the air; the burn from that really thin layer of filth that stickes to the bottom of a pan not well washed....The thing is, I like eggs....,someone once told me that eating too many eggs makes you smell, i don't really beleive it...., but I do find myself giving me a smell from time to time.

sometimes its hard to fall asleep next to someone you have feelings for.....

Fucking Christ, it is amazing how disconnected one feels when they haven't any internet access. We finally got service in the new house. I swear my dependence on technology really astounds me at times. Winter break has treated me pretty well. I stayed in townn this time around, worked, did my fair share of partying. My mother and I haven't ( Read more... )

Productive napping....doesn't get much better than this.

I can't seem to get more than five hours sleep during the week. Sure if I regimented all my time so I never rested, ate, or socialized, then I would have just enough time to squeeze in 8 hours. School life is relentless. I think the fact that I have an 8:30 class (so I have to wake up at 5:50) really puts a damper on my sleepoing habits. I know ( Read more... )

I have been burried under a barrage of paint, sketches, frisket scraps, bristol paper, markers, and books. I love my new school, and this new found feeling of productivity that prior schools failed to invoke. I've been rather high strung of late, all the fucking coffee I have been drinking doesn't help. The ironic twist of the last few weeks is ( Read more... )

Well the sickness that has bestowed me these past few days is rather puzzling. Day 1 consisted of a severe sore throat, Day 2 the sore throat was vanished and was replaced with an uncomfortable, yet not that hindering mucus build up. Now, Day 3, I am in what typically is the final stage for cold for me: an unnerving amount of coughing. No pain ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since my last entry. I have started a classes at the Academy of Arts University here in SF. The work load is on the heavier end, but I love it, love it, love it. For the first time in my life I really am passionate about what I am doing in school. Journalism and creative writing were majors that I was settling for...selling ( Read more... )