dave and i are back together. things are going great. the rents randomly decided to go to florida and left in the van last night so i have the house to myself for a week or so. it's nice. just working and dancing. let's see what else. im going to alaska this summer for a mission trip so im super pumped about that. the grad school never looked at my ( Read more... )

i am really down for some reason. me no likey.

hello all. it's been forever. i still read ur entries like everyday if i can. i'm doing really well. 6 months symptom free now. went through a lot of shit with relationships but i think i finally feel confident in my decisions and that things will work out how they should. i'm happier than ever with dave lately. we arent officially back together ( Read more... )

i feel lost and lonely at the present moment. and i cant even begin to describe why. why is it that everyone always moves on? friends never stay? everything always has to change? i know change is for the best, but aren't we supposed to have a few people who stick with us forever? i don't feel that. i definitely don't. everyone is moving on. ( Read more... )

just wanted to remind u that i love u.

hey guys. it's been awhile. things are pretty good on my end. got a little job down the road at newport tan. nothing big but it's definitely better than the no job i had before it. i'm also volunteering at the studio a few times a week and dancing to keep my spirits up. seriously, dance is like the best therapy ever. i cant even begin to describe ( Read more... )

well things are going alright. trying to fight the urges to try to lose weight, but so far been able to resist the temptation. i'm finishing up my applications for grad school and studying for my GREs. I am still looking for a job. Nothing yet. Kinda freaking out about my financial situation. dont know how i'll be able to afford moving out or grad ( Read more... )

im home now and im going to apply for this job at the hospital. im scared though. i need it so badly but im sure i wont get it.

merry christmas everyone. i'll fill ya'll in more later.

i miss u all. i still read all of your entries. i will be back more often soon. i should be done with treatment by the end of january i hope. im getting to go home for dec 22-jan 2 for the holidays. im doing well. body image=horrible but i have been symptom free since coming here in september ( Read more... )

my chest hurts so badly i cannot breathe. i have to see the doctor here today. im nervous. i just want to go home. i miss everyone so much, but i know things have to change. i cannot have relationships based on eating disorders anymore. it's not healthy and i know that. it's just hard cuz it's what i've had for so long. my body image blows but i ( Read more... )