i feel better now. I still want to cry sometimes,in fact i will probably cry myself to sleep again tonight. I can honestly say i fell in love twice in my entire life. the first time was for a year, one of the most intense relationships i have ever had. We had to break up for stupid reasons, like the color of our skin. i will never forget him, ( Read more... )

i worked 12 hours today, tomorrow i get to wake up and go to school, go to work and start the vicsious cycle again. beginning to think its not worth it anymore. Do you ever really know someone? Im beginning to think, no. You dont, you might think you do, but you never fully know them. People are evolving constantly theres no way to keep track ( Read more... )

i gave edison my depression medicine, so hopefully that will help him. No real drama in my life today. Met my new boss, hes a total dickhead, but other then that the day went fine, went walking with liz, and i actually feel alot better. Mentally and physically, its releaving. dont know if i spelled that right, oh well. I havent been to my ( Read more... )

I dont understand my life. Maybe im not supposed to, why do i get to spend my days off rotting this way? I woke up this morning in the most horrible way, i heard the doorbell ring in my sleep, and in my dream it was my mom, and i was telling her she wasnt allowed in the house and she kept trying to get in. Well i work up to edison pulling the ( Read more... )

Edison and I have been :ahem: friends for about 14 months, he has a girlfriend with whom he has been dating for about four years. He told me the other day they broke up and hes been "depressed" about it, he wanted to come over my house tonight, and why not since he has spent the last two nights here why shouldnt he? He told me to call some ( Read more... )