still in iraq still bored to tears still in love still not a daddy yet still not doing shit still awake still cant wait to go home

its weird i havent seen her in almost 2 years but it seems like ive known her forever...its like i have found a part of myself that i didnt even know was missing...now i cant even imagine not talking to her or being with her...it sounds crazy i know but i cant help it...i called her yesterday and we talked until they made me get off the phone and i ( Read more... )

you shattered me ( Read more... )

god im so fucking in love with angie its not even funny...i need to be with her...shit whyd i have to go and have a baby with lauren? i mean if my daughter wasnt in the piture i could just dump her and that would be that but now i have to worry about custody and shit...dont get me wrong im not saying that she is a mistake just that it was a mistake ( Read more... )

i decided not to ask her because frankly i just dont give a flying fuck...i feel more and more indifferent about lauren every minute...on a brighter note im falling for angela which is great except that im expecting a baby with someone else...i have this funny feeling things are about to get a hell of a lot more complicated...im not sure how this ( Read more... )

ok so my friend keith has this crush on a girl and she just asked "if i was on my deathbed and you had one last thing to say to me what would it be?" is that heavy or what...i think im going to ask my gf that but im pretty sure its going to be something stupid and generic like " i love you and ill see you soon" well i guess ill find out

ok so ill post more of my shit later when i have more time to fuck around with this thing...is it weird that i cant figure out how to put a cool background on my myspace account? i mean everyone else has one but for some reason its like the kryptonite to my superman i just cant do it...lol...o well ill figure it out someday

here i am again ( Read more... )

"I'll be youre friend in hell, until then i despise you, and i probabably always will." ive had that song stuck in my head all day...i dont know if i dont get enough time off over here or too much...its weird the days seem like they go by so damn fast but the weeks crawl by inch by slow inch...i really want to write something but im not sure ( Read more... )

why is it that i dont feel alive when im happy? i have this feeling that i deliberately even if subconsciously sabatoge the joyous times in my life to make myself miserable...i think there is something wrong with me...i think it has something to do with joy and tragedy defining each other i mean without one you cant have the other right? usually i ( Read more... )