Well tonight my stepdad started a fight with me (not to say i didnt antoginize him, but when things are waiting under the surface to bubble up, i am one to make those things manifest rather than pushing them back down). He pushed my mother out of the way to try and get to me, and she threw a bag of noodles which she had in her hand at him (which ( Read more... )

For all of you kids who have never seen what i look like, or havent seen me in forever...BEHOLD MY SEXYNESS!!!! lol or something like that ( Read more... )

ok i havent updated this shit in fucking forever....i dunno i have been spending much time on tribe.net. My pro is http://people.tribe.net/desertstorm Check it out. join and add me as a friend if youd like. its much more interesting than LJ thats for sure. i dunno about this ( Read more... )

Took my friend travis a pot of stew today cause he is low on funds...that was cool, sat around and played guitar for a few hours. ate taco time (filthy greasiness!!!). yesterday i worked all day during the day cause i didnt feel like throwing the this weeks right after i got done doing my route. right now im bored as fuck...and i dont know what i ( Read more... )

Psy party last night was feckin killer...first went and picked up this kid Gerald (which i had never met besides on the internet...he was teh one who told me about the party. i talk to him in a music sharing chat, and he had just moved to portland like 3 months back.) hes a way cool kid...then went and met a few other homies and headed for teh ( Read more... )

Life has been getting better and better finally instead of worse all the time...5 months literally of hell. SUCKED!!!!! what do you do when you lose control of your brain and its controlling you instead of the other way around...what do you do when you go paranoid schizo/dilusional/completely psychotic? cant talk to anyone about it cause then they ( Read more... )

duuuuuuude i get absolutely crunk off water now. last night i chugged 3/4 of a gallon and fuckin went off. it was awesome. fuck drugs man gimme the water!!! lol i was seriously trippin nuts better than anything on just plain old water. i am very glad too, because for teh last like 5 months psy music hasnt been psy. i havent been able to trip out on ( Read more... )

Well Christmas was pretty ghey. i worked christmas eve and christmas day. i also worked new years...more gheyness. my lack of sleep factor at the moment is fucking KILLING me. that and the fact that i have had a constant headache for 5 months now. yeeeeeah sounds like a fuckin party huh?! i have found in the last two days that if i drink gallon ( Read more... )

I dont even know what to write about. im at the point where nothing is anything anymore. Im not happy, im not sad...im just here. i suppose i need to actually sleep some time. that might help. i really need to detox my body is what i need. like sauna style. i dont know. i need something. i need someone to actually talk to. someone who will talk as ( Read more... )

yesterday kinda sucked...i felt like a really big turd all day. just going to church, i really saw what an asshole i am. so i went home and slept all day. felt much better after id had some dreams...always sort things out. my dreams lately have been absolutely nuts. i always wake up with some gigantic AHA! its funny, i am always dreaming of models ( Read more... )