I think i'll go out tonight. Ive worn the use of sleeping pills and ativan out in the least dramatic way possible. Mostly I just want to sleep to avoid hurting or screaming or making things difficult and i'm doing a fairly decent job.. at least, most days. i still have meltdowns but i've always done that. before though, i had someone to hold me ( Read more... )

And then an immeasurable amount of time had gone by ( Read more... )

I can still remember.. even though i stopped being like this ( Read more... )

At first it was quiet and i looked at old texts that were both mine and strangers. goddamn they were funny. i sent the one and then that old jawbreaker song came on and just like that, everything got real good again ( Read more... )

I miss this ( Read more... )

I will tell you that im pretty happy and pretty lonely at the same time and also pretty drunk. i will also say that this is the first conversation ive had with him that i didnt think about killing myself. then i'm gonna tell you that sometimes people leave and that i always end up alright with it all cause thats how i am so i'll focus on that ( Read more... )

Remember the night that started like they used to (the bad way) and ended how they used to (the good way) and i went home and didn't sleep? Remember how i'll never be able to get a hold of him without the webz and oh my god get those birds out of you ears.. Remember what an orgasm sounds like from an old woman and did you just stamp your foot? ( Read more... )

Had a dream he opened the door to go smoke and a german shepherd and two kangaroos, (mama and baby) ran inside to join the fun. We were all pretty stoked to have more pets here especially since the baby kangaroo could talk. Before the sex, two girls in cheerleader outfits and the boy and his dad drank milk that they didn't know was breast milk ( Read more... )

"i need a birthday nugget in my mouth," she said... "don't forget the sweet and sour." thats how the night ended and it began about the same but with birthday steak and the waiter hating me which is normal.. "dude, we're all single here, don't bother." You probably had to be there, it was good ( Read more... )

I went previous twenty like five times before deciding i was going back there. back there and back then and i can't fucking wait.. you'll see me and i'll be dancing and i'll hug the shit out of you but we probably won't talk much cause there's nothing to say that hasn't already been said. where's my coffee table? meh. fuck it ( Read more... )