Two years and two entries later, it's the 26th celebration of Scott Perkins time on Earth. The last two times we saw each other, I was bitching about my birthday though the aspects of why are lost in time, and chronicling my year or more of... actually doing better with life. Though I'm not talking about that subject now, to recap what's transpired ( Read more... )

It's only when I'm feeling rageworthy with nothing to unleash my fury on, no outlet to just let loose, that I even think of LiveJournal which is just a way to let me vent so I don't wander around the house for the next three hours stifling screams, punching walls at random intervals, and spirallig down into an abyss of self-hate for the ( Read more... )

I'm the most depressed piece of shit on my birthday.

I blame being so hopeful and excited and wonderful and fun the day before my birthday.

Still just one big giant wad full of depression, hopelessness, restlessness, and the indecision and frustration to do nothing about it ( Read more... )

Big three ( Read more... )

Games ( Read more... )

Wow, I was looking up Lost and talking with Satai last time? That feels like months ago ( Read more... )

Last night, I let loose a torrent of thoughts and recent events in a journal post. Today, I'm off-the-rails with Lost, in a chattier mood than I've been about anything in over two years. So, just recapping my day for me again ( Read more... )

How oddly appropriate I decide to post again on the day (well, technically it's the next day) Carolyn leaves when my last was the first or second day she arrived. What do I know about her? Well, she was rarely here. I always meant to ask how she got two jobs in only the first five days here, but I kept putting it off because we've never ever had a ( Read more... )

I need to stop dreaming. I just woke up from melancholy. Sure, things were kind of fun at the end with a wheel that randomly changes your personality before you enter a party, but long before that, I was left behind in a van on the campus with Mr. Fletcher asking if I could still play saxophone before he left too. And last night was some crazy ( Read more... )