I was watching "Passion of the Christ" today. I'm trying to find words. I never saw the same in scripture. There was a scene where Jesus was with his followers, and told them "I am the way, the truth, the life" .. as if the Lord was thinking of this when carrying the cross. Or perhaps, the director of the movie thought, people should embrace all of ( Read more... )

I've been wondering about self-forgiveness for some time. Ya know, my faith rests on the trust that God forgives anything - as long as we ask, and as long as we are honest. My friend Reinhardt says that this is true, except for haughtiness - God does not forgive haughtiness. I've often been haughty in some ways. Haughty and vain. This is where I go ( Read more... )

I'm not the man I used to be ( Read more... )

I had a wonderful experience last night, when God the Father came to me in love, and when it was also proven that Jesus is in Him, and today I also learned that I saw the Father when I knew that I saw Jesus in some way. I am learning to love God, to have the fear and trembling but also the will to get the fear cast out by love. Yes, I am supposed ( Read more... )

God told me yesterday that I am singled out for a purpose, the true good. I will have to write more on paper than here. I see that I can fail God ... because I have not been said I'm made true good. It's a work, it seems, to devote myself to this purpose. I may not fail, I must be careful, so that I give myself to this purpose completely, that the ( Read more... )

The Lord has come to me. As His Son, and as the Father. I am singled out for a purpose, He said, and I have faith that it is for love. God IS love, I know this now. I want to be with Him, in His heaven. It is wonderful, I was so afraid, and God came, and I knew it. He told me to trust in Jesus, because else I would regret it. I am left speechless ( Read more... )

I decided to give up the smokes. It was always a bad idea to do it. It's delivering my lungs and will in time relief me from all anxiety, to have done away with it. The spirit world is forbidden terrain, we should not go there willingly, we got nothing to earn from it but obfuscation of the truth. It was my atheism, the thinking that anything is ( Read more... )

If you read this post, please don't think I have gone insane. Cuz I already am. I realize what is better than what I experience now, to be a christian in the true sense of the word. I know I will get better and better. Perhaps I can serve as an example: how to deal with madness in the long run. I have asked for delivery, of the madness resultant of ( Read more... )

I have a love that doesn't know where I am ( Read more... )

I had a long long talk with an old guy in the bistro I eat at. An old fella, worn face. It's the guy I mentioned some days ago in another entry. I can't possible recount everything we talked about, because it was really really much. But it really helped. I felt understood. Probably because I had such immediate liking for this man. I hadn't thought ( Read more... )