I'm coming back to my better self. It's an ascend this time, a good start. I think my big failure was that I tried to include my broken-ness into my life. The schizo isn't the broken-ness, because I can handle it. The broken-ness is anything I can't handle. To handle things is better than to destroy them. When I can handle something, it is a better ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about on how much inclusive worldviews frustrate. And in that, I realized what they really signify - decadence. They are an end that comes in steps, in phases. They are artificial destiny. It's what religions, in the end, all are, creation of destiny. Sometimes, when you listen to Fado for too long, it seems that they're ( Read more... )

How to avoid empty constructing? Wouldn't reliance on construction, rather than on sincere expression, totally mislead us? I guess something's usefulness can deceive us badly. The real can makes us breathe. But then I want to define the real. And I end up constructing something that exists - but only because everything exists. The everything, or ( Read more... )

It was quite an eventful week. Lot's of thought, discussion, reading and writing. A long talk with Wolfgang on Tuesday, and a theater visit on Wednesday. I love Dresden - one of our theaters, the Schauspielhaus, the theater I visit, they have turned the prices of their programs to 1 Euro, for unemployed people like me. Means I'll be visiting it ( Read more... )

he's good, he's god ( Read more... )

a dream of chess without figures ( Read more... )

Ok, so I promised an update on my change of worldview ( Read more... )

Last evening I was out on the street to get myself a meal at the local cheap bistro. I was sitting at my table, waiting for the meal, and was reading the menu. They had a page with quotes and lines from poems someone thought to be fitting for a menu. It said something about smiles. How they don't cost anything. How no person can be rich enough to ( Read more... )

empty matter, ideally solid space ( Read more... )

I think I might just have had a near death experience while I was asleep. I had just wanted to relax a bit on my bed, it was afternoon and not dark yet. When I finally woke up it as quite long into the night already ( Read more... )