what i have learned. oh the things i have learned. people still tell me i am young and have a lot to live for but i feel so old. i wonder how much older ill feel later, if i get any older. whatever man, whatever.

i always feel so alone. im gonna end up alone. i dont blame anybody but myself. i just cant seem to relate to people anymore. i wish i was a kid again and didnt give a shit about anything. but the sad thing is, i grew up and now i know my effect on people. and now i see what my actions have done to people that i really love. fuck this. im tired of ( Read more... )

im having one of those days again.

so everything has been going pretty great this semester until someone rammed into my car on tuesday. i dont know why dumb shit like that keeps happening. all in all, my poor lickity-split is totaled and now i have to drive a stupid rental car. and to make matters worse, its a fucking pt loser. talk about adding insult to injury. i mean im really ( Read more... )

why is it that no matter how hard i try, i cant sleep unless its daytime?
this is beginning to piss me off.

2 weeks and 3 days until my birthday.
excited? you bet.
broke? definitely.
do i care?...nahhhhh

im definitely going to smile to myself when i show my real ID at the bars i already go to.

it'll be just like the first time i bought myself a pack of cigarettes.
and just like that, eventually, the excitement will fade.

oh well.

well i havent written anything in a while. i actually kinda forgot i even had this. it just seems like ive been so busy doing this and that! life is looking mighty fine these days. i just need some more cash flow. jt is moving back in a matter of weeks, life with pips is great, school is a breeze, work is work, and i seem to find time to have fun ( Read more... )

jam some records ( Read more... )

fuck it!

well i was wrong about myself. as usual ( Read more... )