i just woke up and its freezing cold in here and nobody is home. i have no clue where anybody is at except that rebecca is at dad's house for the weekend. weird. christopher is online and i said hi to him but he didnt say anything back. but, i dont blame him. he is probably still mad at me ( Read more... )

Well, me and Christopher just got into a big argument. Well, more like a discussion that didn't go anywhere and didn't exactly have a point to it except that we both made each other feel like shit. I feel bad for what I've done lately. I wish i could earn his trust back somehow, but that will probably take a life time. I've done so much stuff to ( Read more... )

yah. i deleted that last entry which nobody even got to read hopefully. i've decided that i just need to calm down a bit. i hope everybody is right in saying "things will be better after conor is born." and that quotes a lot of people. ;) it's almost midnight and.....yah. i've decided to keep the baby afterall. i only thought about it the last 3 ( Read more... )

well, i almost went into labor today so we called the doctor and i have to wait for the contractions to be 5 minutes or less apart. which they were like 12 minutes apart for hours on end. so my back is killing me, i can hardly walk, and im miserable and lonely. so we're hoping that conor will be here by the beginning of next week. hoping! im dying ( Read more... )

well, christopher actually came over for a few hours today. but he got mcdonalds on the way over here so i didnt cook for him like i was going to. but that's ok. i cooked shrimp for me and made some apple cinnamon muffins. me and christopher didn't even talk for pretty much the whole time he was here. then he left at 6:13. yah, it was boring. i ( Read more... )

well, christopher couldn't get a ride over here because he was at josh's house after school. but i can understand that because josh lives all the way out in fairfield which is like a 20 minute drive to my house. so he probably did end up spending the night. im hoping he will come over today after school ( Read more... )

shanel's mom picked her up this morning but i dont remember when really. i just remember shanel waking me up saying that she was going home. i woke back up at like 2 o clock and took a shower for a long time. then rebecca and george got home. rebecca said she was gonna sit outside on the steps and do her home work. i went out like 5 minutes later ( Read more... )

today, me george and shanel went to dairy queen and hung out there till it was time for shanel to actually work. we stayed there for a while and ate bunches of food then we left. i came home and took a nap and george went and picked up shanel from work around 2:30 because she didnt want to stay there. i dont blame her. after going through what she ( Read more... )

well, last night was quite interesting. shanel and her dad got into a huge fight and her dad was all drunk and stuff and at like 11 we ended up picking her up on the side of huffmeister because he was chasing her in his truck. it was scary! cuz i could hear him over the phone and hear her running and stuff and then the phone went dead. so we went ( Read more... )

ONE DAY THIS WILL BEME                                  
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