I began this journal 4 years ago, exactly as coincidence would have it, apparently to blog about earth shattering movies, boys, my mother, my [to this day] unsuccessful attempts to read a Russian novel from start to finish, books and poetry that changed my life. The same bullshit that I care about today. Some already resolved issues like where the ( Read more... )

Things have really gone to shit. This one is gonna be a toughie to rectify.

This idea first hit me sometime mid-October as I sat in my tiny room in Salamanca stealing wifi to book some rooms in the south of Spain. The idea was easy to file away in the back of my mind under the "dream" category for the time being, but as my final senior semester approaches I can't help but revisit this grand plan that can have me back in ( Read more... )

It's not the end of the year, but I'll neglect this thing until it ends. This year wasn't dramatic, no huge ends or beginnings or life turns for the better or worse. That shit was so pre-2006 ( Read more... )

Someone once told me he thought my friends must all be in love with me.. Well I think I am just a little bit in love with all of my friends. My impossibly ideal match would be a perfect colletion of one thing I love most about each one.

I don't know why I'm often thinking about what I'm missing when I have so fucking much.

Things I can't post to my public-facing travel journal ( Read more... )

I have an impulse to write about how I am so fucking sad and freezing that I want to curl up into a little ball and die, but that's not exactly what's going through my mind. I've never been a family girl and what I'm really feeling is how odd it is that after having accepted my crappy relationships with either of my parents I managed to find a mild ( Read more... )

A caricature of my worst traits.. disgusting but eye-opening. I will never become that.

I don't really have a need to share what's on my mind much these days. Every thought is fleeting and the interest in dwelling on any just isn't there. I used to be such a public person, from this blog to reaching out to friends. This might just be a good change though.

I'm off to Spain in a bit over a week. Maybe I'll try to update.

ME-- i'm off to a bad start.. theres hw due today but i dont have the book ( Read more... )