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[naturalabuse87]

Aside from the reoccuring headaches that I have had this weekend - everything was awesome. It had beena while since I had partyied with everyone and I had a lot of fun

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[platypus_youth]

i dont feel like i know a lot of our friends on a personal level but i think its because there is a solid maybe 8-10 people that i see regularly

[naturalabuse87]

Yeah, I'd have to agree. It really makes me sad. The people that I want to see, I rarely do. And even when we see eachother.. we don't talk that much.

[jock_slaughter]

I feel like everyone's changed completely. I feel way less close to all of our friends than I initially did. I don't know if it's the fact that suddenly everyone is pairing off which makes for some sort of seclusive, cold atmosphere towards everyone else, but I don't know.
I just feel like everyone is growing up. It feels like everyone gives a shit about lame shit that never even used to matter before. I still feel like i'm 15 years old, and I never want to ever feel any older than that.

[naturalabuse87]

A couple months ago I had a phase where I needed to know everything and find all the answers. I finally realized that things should be left unanaswered and worrying myself about my future is the best way to get myself depressed. I just want to go back to the days where we would all hang out, listen to the same cd every night, drink beer and mingle. I liked doing that kind of stuff.
I don't like that I feel like I'm growing apart from the people I really do love...

[diejockskater]

it's the fact that suddenly everyone is pairing off which makes for some sort of seclusive, cold atmosphere towards everyone else...i guess dude

i dont think anyone has changed everyones just porkin each other

[naturalabuse87]

I suppose that makes a difference only in the personal lives. But when we are together, it's not like we don't talk to eachother.. we still talk, laugh and cuddle with eachother and stuff. it just doesn't seem like it used to be.. it just feels like all of the drama that's happened is beating our spirits.

[media_blitz_77]

i agree.
but i sure did enjoy seeing you this weekend!<3

[naturalabuse87]

You were sooo wasted. Hahaha<3 hang out wit me

[_as_lovers_go_]

I feel like I'm not close to pretty much anyone anymore. I have like 4 people that I'm really close to and that kills me.

[platypus_youth]

thats because you stay locked indoors, internet relationships never really bloom

[_as_lovers_go_]

Well, oh well. I didn't feel close to people even when I hung out every day.

[onlyinletters]

"existential crisis" i think sums up how i feel all the time.
but i agree with what you said about feeling restless and bored. it's really weird.

i disagree with vivek though. if someone told me i had to be 15 again i'd kill myself. i spent my early teenage years only feeling confused and fucked up. now i'm still kind of confused and fucked up, but i've become more independent and less insecure.

[all_right_jill]

i can see myself hating life when i was 15 (which was only a year ago) when im older.

[naturalabuse87]

i used to have a lot of fun not giving a shit about anything. i thought that was how i was going to live the rest of my life (13,14,15) and now, i've become a lot more intelligent and realized that i used to be a scumbag.. it's just kind of weird because i miss doing the spontaneous things i did and shit. it's weird but i know what you mean

[platypus_youth]

i dont think vivek was saying he wanted to be 15 again, but that he still feels like a kid, i feel the same way and am reminded of it everyday, because i see people grow up a little more everyday