i think i need a break from alot of things right now. i need to figure out what i want this year. i think im the only one that dosent know. i try to make the best out of things but it just doesnt seem to work. so well. im leaving for PA august 7th for a week or so. sick

so if this is how its going to be when i live alone. this sucks. i feel like shit. i wish i could take back the past 2 years and replace them in a few years. i think things would be going the way i would like them to. all this crying dosent do anything.
and all my freinds are sketchy as hell. fuck this place. i just wanna move

dear life... i give up!
i try to hard and get nothing out of it. the one thing that i love could care less and already knows. so once again another broken heart!
cry my a fucking river!

ps. WHY CANT I BREAK THE HEARTS!

i could just die right now! fuck

i guess i will never be good enough! oh well

ps why cant i have a fucking killer time like other people i know. i feel like a fucking baby right now. eh whatever. we have fucking bugs everywhere in me and scotts room. wtf. oh yeah and i fucking hate girls including myself!

and i got a lip tattoo last night. HAHA

when everything seems to be falling down and i feel scared inside, i atleast get to fall alsleep next to the best person in the world. and just the thought of that helps me get through the anything.

i get so scared sometimes being alone. only 30 more min. untill scott comes home! :D

i took my first half of my ged today. pretty easy. tomorrow im taking the last part hopfully it will be over with. (fingers crossed).
also i worked out for 1 hour & 1/2 tonight. the hardest i could work out.

once again,

i lick the cats butt.

so things have been up and down for me right now. everything is fine i just take things out on people that i care about. when i should be able to forget about all of those shitty things when im around them. i think things are looking up for me. new plan, even on my crappiest days im going to at least not get mad at the one person that makes my life ( Read more... )

i think i really need to take some time off or somethng. im driving myself crazy. Everything has been bothering me. I just want to be positive.