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[naturesgift]

I look upon this life of mine and wonder, what am I doing? Why do I care so much about people? Why does the incessant need to please others haunt me? and then when that is not fulfilled, I am left feeling inadequate. the constant need for others to like me, maybe. why, I don't know.maybe being in a ricefield has boggled my brain a bit, so I am not

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[bombay_agent]

hmmm i dont know about you, but im ready to have you back! lol. i miss you, but im glad you took the experiance. you'll always be more attentive to certains things now that you know what it's like to be on the outside looking in and i know you'll fight harder to get what you deserve. it's good to bleed out your frustrations. yea im taking a gym class as well. i feel all mixed up inside about what the heck i should be doing with my life and the responsibilites that seem to have being dumped onto me. its gotten to the point where i dont even know what field i love in art history anymore. i think im going to spend sometime after graduation finding my passions again because they definately seem to have gotten buried under the stress of living life. lol i admit though your ode to artemisia and my darling caravaggio have made me nostalgic. let me know how the gym goes, but i know you'll be just fine. remember the machines don't speak japanese. in fact they aren't really fond of conversation at all. trust me i've tried at werblin. the

[naturesgift]

haha i miss you man. you always have a way of magically removing any discontent that i may have had. it was just one of those days when everything that could go wrong did go wrong lol. and then i had a day yesterday where everything went right! lets just say my "life is a riot" (quoted from my sis, jen). i am living in extremes. yeah i am slowly rediscovering my passions. since you were the last friend i saw when i left to japan, i want you to be the first one i reunite with upon my return to america:) we could sit in a starbucks and talk alllllllll day about anything and everything!