a hard decison

[naturesgift]

aaaah, one of the main reasons i do not want to return to america next year is because of my family's mentality, especially that of my mother. she will never change her way of thinking and it is so hard for me to put up with that after i have truly blossomed into a mature , responsible adult in japan. I cannot deal with childish antics. i

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[s0und_st0rm]

hey love, i understand what that must be like. making as big as a decision as that is truly very difficult because you have to weigh all the pros and cons. i wish i could help. i would tell you to come back just for me but of course that's very selfish of me. :P besides, i might not even be in nj because my future is rocky right now as well. im trying to decide what the hell to do with my life. i wish there had been people here who could have helped me through college. omg, im at the library and someone's phone just rang and that used to be your ringer!!! oh how i miss you! i didnt even know you were writing in livejournal. this totally inspires me. if you check my journal, i barely wrote in the past few months. i havent even logged in in weeks or else i would have noticed your entries and commented. ahh, i have so much going on. im trying to write my paper.. so many distractions and thoughts and feelings.. that i want to let out but dont know how to. so many things to wonder about and i wish you were here so i could talk to you alll

[naturesgift]

aww thanks hun. your words, as always, are reassuring and comforting. we both seem to be going through rough, turbulent waters in our lives eh? yeah i ever since my trip to thailand, i ve been writing a lot. i filled up 2 books with writing, i think i told youthat before. so now i am just using LJ. i miss writing. Ｉ almost lost that part of me too, but i am slowly regaining it. I really do wish you the best in your future decisions too. i wish i was there to talk to release you from all the pent up thoughts that you have. awww youwere the best to talkto man. no one understands me like you...even before i finish my sentence, you ａｌｒｅａｄｙ know the endingand you have fully comprehended all that i want to say even if Ihavent said it....muahz i love you much ａｎｄ i hope i can talk to you before i make my decision +) if not, ill talkto you when i get back....most likely this year;)