The ever crimson tide floats with time ( Read more... )

I feel disconnected and empty yet connected enough to have a straight mind...I see myself one way and cannot meet up to that way. After this year is over...I think I will be a lot more humble...I can't deal with the idiosyncracy of people...the one track mind of them...aaaahh. Just too much to explain...i'll probably not be on due to a lot of ( Read more... )

I think this is what I need. The word need, is something I probably have used wrongly. this time, i really do need to use dat word. I am in need for a change. Change outwardly as well as inwardly. change lifestyle wise, change physical wise, change mental wise, and change overall. I am not changing who i am, I am juss adding and deleting aspects of ( Read more... )

Life....a harsh cycle of evolutionary struggles that is intended to make one strong...yet in reality it crushes them to dustless shambles that is secured by the evading fraudulence ( Read more... )

My Dad had surgery this morning...he'll be okay...hopefully...::sigh:: my brother, Dharam, from the Marines is coming tomorrow...he's shocked as well...after the surgery we went to see him...in him i saw my grandmother...memories flooded me...i saw her in him...the same dazed look...he looked so...dead...ahhh i shouldn't be saying this...and then ( Read more... )

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i feel overwhelmed, like tearing, like yelling, like doing a million things...i am soo stressed...i have this paper due tomorrow and...I can't seem to get my roomate to start revising it...cuz theirs so much distraction..oh well i'll live and get over it to see another day.

I have this sinking feeling...it's taking me deeper and deeper into the unknown territories that I thought I had clamied, the territories I thought I knew...but now I no longer know nothing...I don't know what I want anymore...I don't know if what I want should be controlled by ME. Am I capable of makin such choices...isn't it quite selfish...yet ( Read more... )

damn yo...I just had this dream about....alex. It was weird because in these pictures I happend to have it implied that he had all these chics after him...but he never loved any of them...it was as if he was searching for is love...and then I happened to see him at this party taking place in the 1800's and he was restless, going up and down the ( Read more... )

just like how people kick off their shoes and peel off their clothes after a long methodical day of whatever "routine" they have, writing makes me feel comfortable and relieved. I kick back on my chair, loosen my hair tie and feel the flow of repressed thoughts enter me, almost invading and counterbalancing the calm environment. Just like how ( Read more... )